Discussion Are you keeping going as usual or not until you CTB?

[SleepingLessons]

Just curious whether you guys with a plan or even date are keeping going as usual with life or not. Are you still putting effort into work, friends, family, hobbies, etc. Or are you backing out of those things as much as you possibly can? Are you acting more recklessly with your money or still sticking to your budget, eating healthy or not, etc.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

i'm personally living pretty healthy but, i'm saying fuck it to retirement plans and all that shit, don't want kids or love, or a house.

I will spend these last 5 years (maybe) throwing my cash around like it's nothing, i recently bought an ounce of bush and im gonna go camp and get baked, good times till the end man

 

[SleepingLessons]

i recently bought an ounce of bush and im gonna go camp and get baked, good times till the end man

That literally sounds like a dream tbh. 5 years is a pretty long time, you at all worried that you'll change your mind, or are you open to the possibility?

Btw your pfp is amazing, the spooky vibes are amazing.

 

[TraumaEscapee:)]

I just spend most of my day sleeping and when I wake up I try to fall back to sleep so I can escape from the pain. Having dreams allows me to experience a different reality and forget my life for a while. Dreams are a blessing sometimes. They're a form of escape.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

That literally sounds like a dream tbh. 5 years is a pretty long time, you at all worried that you'll change your mind, or are you open to the possibility?

Btw your pfp is amazing, the spooky vibes are amazing.

The reason i say 5 years is because i'm giving myself a buffer to have some fun if i want, ill be 30 in 5 years (25) now, i can't see it being any better honestly. I could be dead tommorow, all i need is the N tank and im puffing rofl.

I want out of this pain man, it's been there since birth, all day is a fucking shitstorm of piss and shit, mixed into a swirling vortex of cumstains and monotony,

 

[just_so_done]

i'm personally living pretty healthy but, i'm saying fuck it to retirement plans and all that shit, don't want kids or love, or a house.

I will spend these last 5 years (maybe) throwing my cash around like it's nothing, i recently bought an ounce of bush and im gonna go camp and get baked, good times till the end man

Haha i'd be down for some of that cash and getting backed lol!!!

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Haha i'd be down for some of that cash and getting backed lol!!!

hey dude, i'd let you hit that shit with me, cash is nothing i have plenty of it, used to have a small business so bleh.

Fun times all round, pass the bowl around

 

[AresCohere]

For me, any date I have is likely far off, toward the end of this year. I need proper time to plan and it is more optimal if I do it after I leave for college as then my family won't be anywhere near me to stop me. However, if stuff continues to get worse and faster, I may give up on even going a few more months and do it even sooner.

It's all a matter of time ig, but until then I'll try to act as normal as I can, even with how hard it is to do that.

 

[dra1ncoreslwt]

Just curious whether you guys with a plan or even date are keeping going as usual with life or not. Are you still putting effort into work, friends, family, hobbies, etc. Or are you backing out of those things as much as you possibly can? Are you acting more recklessly with your money or still sticking to your budget, eating healthy or not, etc.

I am trying my best to keep an image or perception of me from other people as natural as possible, so I'm keeping up the normal routine and vibe, but I'm anxious a lot of the time when I'm alone so idk if that counts, just going through with it until I can make a mature decision.

 

[Unattainable666]

I'm continuing to go to work as if nothing is wrong. Supposed to be out of my apartment mid May. I will be painting the walls black and leaving some surprises for the bitch who made my fucking life miserable. Childish - yup who gives a shit??? I won't be around to feel the brunt of her anger. Bitch. Will get my final paycheck on a monday, cash it, clean out my account get in my car drive to where Im going set up my funeral arrangements, visit my little girl and take care of business. I'll be gone before the end of the month. What a release it is to not give a shit about anything. Don't care what people think of me; don't care who knows Im gone. I will feel nothing absolutely nothing. I'll get to see my little girl and Dad again - that's what Im looking forward to.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

I'm playing Pokemon Sapphire but I don't think I'm gonna finish it

 

[warriorofeld]

Barely keeping up with anything everyone's kinda noticed my vibe change but I just told them I split up with someone so to deflect it a bit
Can't enjoy the things I used to or do anything enjoyable as it brings me no joy
No date set but readu at a moments notice should things go badly as I forsee..

 

[Saudade]

Just curious whether you guys with a plan or even date are keeping going as usual with life or not. Are you still putting effort into work, friends, family, hobbies, etc. Or are you backing out of those things as much as you possibly can? Are you acting more recklessly with your money or still sticking to your budget, eating healthy or not, etc.

I don't really have a plan but I do feel like my time is coming very soon. It makes me see things differently, how the little things actually matter. Whether it's how you treat people or how much anything even matters in the end. I didn't really change my ways, but I've been observing a lot more than usual...

 

[BookPostponed]

I set the transit date and I'm going to just minimize my life to cut things out like possessions, people and personal matters slowly like I'm going minimalist or something. There are factors that could bring it faster than not but for me, I'm definitely changing day by day even if it's small.

 

[Source Energy]

I don't really have friends except one. I still go to work, although my motivation plummeted. This was a workplace I used to love, though, and I will go and honor my commitment until the day I ctb. My suicide will be in my days off. I won't show up, and they will probably come looking for me but by then I will be gone.

Other than that, yes I still eat right, go to the gym, take care of my appearance and health. I love and appreciate this body and regret having to leave it behind. Plus, there is no point walking around like a zombie. Nobody cares or understands, they would just judge. The world responds better to smiling, neat looking people - we like it or not.

Finances - I kept a certain safety amount untouched just in case. But other than that, no more saving. I go to the salon, order expensive food, I don't care anymore. I will be gone soon.

My ctb plan is between Me, Myself and I only.

 

[nightshade00]

I really can't decide between acting completely normal and blowing my money, traveling, taking risks, etc.

 

[CentreMid]

I'll be keeping up the facade. No need to have anyone preemptively worry about me. The less people know, the less likely I'll be caught

 

[SleepingLessons]

I really can't decide between acting completely normal and blowing my money, traveling, taking risks, etc.

I feel you on this one, it's a weirdly hard decision. It always feels like nothing should matter so why not just do whatever, but while we're still here things just do? I know I'm still tied down a little by anxiety and depression. And there's always the added danger of people noticing if you start taking risks. Hmm.

 

[NorthernMonkey]

hey dude, i'd let you hit that shit with me, cash is nothing i have plenty of it, used to have a small business so bleh.

Fun times all round, pass the bowl around

I don't have much cash but I do have a big bag of weed and nobody to smoke it with, can I join?

I really can't decide between acting completely normal and blowing my money, traveling, taking risks, etc.

Well you can't take it with you. I have travelled a lot and taken some daft risks over the years. I've got in a few sticky situations that's for sure. But I know that on my death bed, I won't be thinking, if only I had been more sensible and left more money for my son. Sorry kid, you can make your own way, I had to :)

 

[nightshade00]

I feel you on this one, it's a weirdly hard decision. It always feels like nothing should matter so why not just do whatever, but while we're still here things just do? I know I'm still tied down a little by anxiety and depression. And there's always the added danger of people noticing if you start taking risks. Hmm.

Right! If I suddenly quit my job and traveled the world, it would cause some concern. I'd rather slip away without showing any signs beforehand. But I also still want to enjoy myself before I leave.

 

[SleepingLessons]

Right! If I suddenly quit my job and traveled the world, it would cause some concern. I'd rather slip away without showing any signs beforehand. But I also still want to enjoy myself before I leave.

Maybe there's a middle ground. Personally I've been taking more risks, but not in a way that would make anyone concerned. Generally I'm pretty on top of things due to anxiety, so by loosening my grip on life and doing what I actually want to do when I want to instead of planning things, I've found a good balance. I'm not sure if that would be applicable to you, but I hope you can find something that works for you!