Are you ever happy?

[Hope:-)]

Are you?

 

[notlongnow]

Its been months since I felt happiness and a genuine feeling of being content. It upsets me, i miss it.

 

[LivideLamb]

Not really. I have felt happiness throughout my life, yet it's such an unfamiliar feeling. It nearly never happens. I guess that there are some seconds where I feel some form of happiness, when I finish a good book or discover some groundbreaking music, but they don't last and they are quite futile.

 

[Leiden]

Never, not even one little pin hair of a bit....ever.

 

[Hope:-)]

I used to be happy until I started taking medication. I was 18 and my Christmas job had ended. I was a bit low because I had nothing to do, but |I was still happy most of the time. I went on antidepressants then various other meds and they ruined my life. Then I injured my face and things got even worse. I'm 34 now, so yeah I've been happy but I'm literally never happy anymore.

 

[thebunny]

at some point, i was and it was nice while it lasted. however, it's such an unfamiliar feeling to me that i've always felt guilty of feeling it, like i wasn't mean to feel such a thing. i found too much comfort on my own suffering and trauma. because of that, i've always found a way to self-sabotage and destroy my very own happiness. being in despair was the only thing that made sense to me and it felt right. it felt right to not be okay and i hate it.

 

[Julgran]

Are you?

My day-to-day life is full of anxiety, but sometimes I remind myself that life will eventually end - no matter if it's of natural causes or my own hand - that makes my day a bit brighter

 

[Huntfish34]

Here and there I suppose but it usually doesn't last long.

 

[scenery]

Yes, occasionally. But it doesn't negate my depression, either… my joys are always temporary.

 

[freedompass]

What is happiness. In most cases I think it's actually just relief because some kind of pain or deprivation ceased for a while. The struggle for survival followed by old age sickness and death is not really something to be happy about. Though plenty of people seem to live in denial or delusion, blissful ignorance. But happy? Not really.

 

[Jimblue]

There was 2 weeks in my life that I was so happy, had something to looking forward to, no pain.I feel that entire world is different.

But rest of my life, I always feel pain, just some days are better, some days are worse.

 

[FuneralCry]

Such a thing as happiness does not even exist to me. There is no relief or even contentment in a life like this. Being trapped in this human body can be torture. And all that I have to look forward to is more suffering in the future.
I've never ever wanted to be here in the first place, being forced to exist in a cruel world where it's so difficult to die is nothing to be happy about. Enduring life is not desirable in any way, I just want nothingness. Non existence is ideal as the dead cannot suffer. Those who die are lucky.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Not really. Times I am less actively suicidal or nihilistic. Even times where I temporarily put all the things that cause me to want to leave in the background. But it's always only very temporary and the darkest thoughts are still active anyways. They're just muffled.

 

[Hurt]

I haven't been happy for the last years.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I feel some momentary contentment eating

 

[John-LW]

I don't think I would know if I've been happy or not.

 

[home]

yeah, and that's the problem. The small joys I feel are enough to bring my hopes up, only for the rest of my life to crush it down. I believe the idea that you cant experience happiness without experiencing sadness (and vice versa). It's because Ive felt joy and love that Im in such a deep despair. Its because I know what im missing. Thats why I want to die.

 

[Tiberius85]

Yes, absolutely. This morning, sitting in the surprisingly balmy autumn sun in the garden with the weekend newspaper and a coffee - pure happiness. Having a toast with Nutella later for dinner - made me very happy. Discovering a new piece of music: happy. These are moments of happiness. Life is a string of moments.

Happiness is something that occurs in moments. Certainly there is no everlasting, constant happiness, though. In that sense, the modern hunt for happiness is completely misguided and - I firmly believe - a big reason for many people actually being unhappy. Because there is the promise that you only have to chase after happiness long and hard enough and you will find it. But that is unattainable.

 

[Ruinedbypsy]

I was happy before I got hospitalized and I was happy while I was with the one girl I had a real relationship with. Haven't been happy at all since January.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

No. I haven't felt any kind of happiness in years. It's probably been better than 20 years. Closer to 30, realistically.

 

[outrider567]

Not since January

 

[Worndown]

Yes, unless my health is trying to take me out.

 

[sunshiningbackwards]

Mostly when I'm drunk and there are brief moments of respite during the day but by and large I feel miserable

 

[NoLightRemains]

It comes and goes. There are good days and bad days. The good moments don't last long enough to justify the suffering, which makes me want to ctb

 

[ryo the frog]

fleeting moments of happiness like eating a food I like or watching a funny video.

 

[theboy]

no. only sometimes I am cheerful, but I go back to depression very quickly.

 

[Zegers]

nothing compared to the shit storm that it's all been.

 

[Nanako]

No

 

[Everlong]

Ate shrooms last night while camping alone on the lake. Feel amazing! Did a microdose this morning. I think I found it.
Before this weekend? I have SN in transit. Time and psilocybin will tell if this can be sustainable.

 

[rmack88]

No. I'm rarely happy. It just sucks when you are in this feeling, but I'm not sure that I've ever been really happy.