SinisterKid

SinisterKid

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I kinda hoped it would get easier the longer I hung around, it doesn't, it gets harder.
 
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Avicii

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Sep 4, 2018
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Not necessarily that you don't care, but does somebody's CTB affect you the same way since you've joined the forum?

I think that I will always feel heartbroken when we lose someone from SS and it will stick with me for a long time because I relate to them. We all do. I know we all care as well, just in different ways.

I'm soft, I tend to cry at the deaths of people I don't know. While hospitalized recently, I overheard the lady next to me planning her funeral and I cried and had to plug into my tablet and watch cute animal videos. I didn't even know her, but my heart was breaking that she was dying. (Hypocritical, huh?) She looked about 60. I would have traded places with her. Truly.

I guess I just want to see how this makes people feel. Or how they approach their feelings when someone CTBs.

All my love, H xo
Shock comes to mind then happiness for that person, my first user was a girl called Xanax who documented her trials with the CO tent method it didn't work I think the first two times and on the third she said goodnight and a week later someone posted her funeral notice from her family with a pic , it was weird to put s face to a user were all anonymous, the other was a potential partner I was talking to , she pulled out she didn't feel right time to hurt her husband, later post of hers she had bought and drank N, she never posted again and I again felt sadness
 
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Mizzmini45

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Dec 1, 2019
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Not necessarily that you don't care, but does somebody's CTB affect you the same way since you've joined the forum?

I think that I will always feel heartbroken when we lose someone from SS and it will stick with me for a long time because I relate to them. We all do. I know we all care as well, just in different ways.

I'm soft, I tend to cry at the deaths of people I don't know. While hospitalized recently, I overheard the lady next to me planning her funeral and I cried and had to plug into my tablet and watch cute animal videos. I didn't even know her, but my heart was breaking that she was dying. (Hypocritical, huh?) She looked about 60. I would have traded places with her. Truly.

I guess I just want to see how this makes people feel. Or how they approach their feelings when someone CTBs.

All my love, H xo
I'm jealous of the dead. Weird?
 
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Tearygirl

I hate being alone. So please don't leave me.
Dec 1, 2019
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I'm jealous of the dead. Weird?
No, not weird at all. I also feel jealous of them and I want to be found dead soon.
p.s. For me, other people's death is heartbroken, but I want to die.
 
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Isittimetogonola

Isittimetogonola

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Oct 22, 2019
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I feel sad when I read someone's post or reply and it connects beyond words. And then I see the line and think of missed opportunity to know them. Selfish I know. Then the relief kicks in that they are no longer in pain. Vast array of emotions in a very small space.
Due to the nature of work I do (emergency medicine), I'm kinda used to death. That doesn't mean to say I feel absolutely nothing, I do, but it's a very dulled down emotional response. It just sort of makes me sit back and take a breath for a second or two. That's the best way to describe it.
Street medic here. After a code, I feel the same exact way. Surrealness. brief moment of compassion for the pt and family,even a tear or 2. A deep breath for myself, then on to the next.
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

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Melting Heart :'(
 
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