Are you ctb?

[deflagrat]

I am trying to fight the urge to ctb, so I would rather not ctb just yet. Eventually I will ctb when my parents can't take care of me anymore (economically speaking). It is never too late to do it.

 

[wanttodie]

I will as soon as I find a method that's right for me.

 

[deathoverlife]

Thank you. I think I might get the house to myself on 10/29. Unlikely for 10/28 unless I don't have to go to work.

am almost decided ...should be on 22 /10

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I 110% know I want to, but I have no idea how or if I will. I just know that I have this deep, innate need to end things. I just have no idea how to not fuck everything up for my family, because the second I CTB it's game over for everyone, not just me. If I could disappear off the face of the earth and be forgotten, I'd be gone in a flash.

 

[Rocky M]

I've already attempted twice. Both times failed because I was caught. I'm trying again in December, and I am 95% certain it will work because I will be alone.

The other 5% is for Failure from other things like survival instinct and getting caught again, because unfortunately not everybody succeeds at finding their peace (although in a more just world, that would be possible). I have to be realistic about what will happen. No more fantasies

 

[friendly99]

I don't know if I want to ctb but I do want the option to die quickly and painlessly

 

[Retched]

I intend to. My attempt failed due to my stupidity and irrationality of impulsive behavior. I feel like I am in limbo. Now I have to look for another way. However, every time I set a date, something else happens, like a change of plans for people in my household, or even once at 3 am, I was set up and ready and an emergency vehicle came up and parked outside, awakening everyone in the house with the sirens...was there for neighbors....or something else comes up, it's getting irritating. And survival instinct is one of those things that comes up.

 

[miauimon]

I don't know if I want to ctb but I do want the option to die quickly and painlessly

this.

 

[DeadLikeMe]

For sure.

 

[Fallen bad23]

On my 23rd birthday, I promised myself that I won't live to see my next birthday. I still know for sure that I want to end this thing that is life but I just need to find a swift and fatal way so when I go there is no coming back. I can't put my family through that pain and embarresment that their girl attempted suicide. I need a method that would appear like natural death so they don't get hurt knowing that they could have stopped me. I disconected myself from my friends except for one because her wedding is in a month time and I can't let her worry about why we aren't really talking anymore. I also can't attend her wedding so I will have to do it before 11/16. I would really appreciate any method recomendations.