Discussion Are you 100% sure you will CTB before natural death occurs? Poll

[BlackWednesday]

It is unlikely I will survive the next 40 days let alone the next 40 years

 

[yive]

yes, cause i don't believe that i will die an "involuntary"/natural death any time soon, like in my sleep for example or by accident. life sucks and i'm not going to endure it for years, not to mention reaching old age

 

[puppet_nihilist]

I mean if I were a writer I'd say suicide is an ending that fits well into my story, it would be weird if I don't end up killing myself. Just a battle of attrition but I'm sure I'll win over my circumstances and SI, eventually. 1000% if I don't end up mangled on the streets on a freak accident.

 

[OutOfTheVoid]

wdym by 'natural' death? that confuses me, and trying to be specific to like 'old age' or something just makes this poll a false dichotomy since there can also be accidental death, illness, murder, etc.

i chose to ignore the 'natural' part and voted 'no', bc this is actually an interesting concern that i grapple with daily. ideally, i would die by ctb. but i cannot be 100% certain that nothing else might kill me first. maybe i develop an illness that kills me tomorrow. maybe someone murders me. maybe i get run over by a car. who knows?

im constantly hyper-aware of these possibilities, and i act as if any one of them could happen at any moment. it comes with a lot of anxiety, but it also motivates me. i dont want any loose ends before i die. and i dont take for granted that i'll have an abundance of time to tie those loose ends, so i just tie them asap

 

[HadItAll]

Yeah everyone I fucked up the poll. I meant death caused by aging process/dying from old age.

 

[lionetta12]

?

Most likely unless the natural cause is a unexpected heart attack or spreadable cancer that I didn't know about or something else, if I'm told I got cancer ahead of time though I would probably just CTB.

 

[death song]

I am elderly and have several medical conditions so I could drop dead at any moment. However in spite of these maladies I am still pretty active. The thing that drives me toward CTB is I don't want to have a debilitating episode that leaves me unable to care for myself or puts me in a nursing home. I guess I want to get ahead of those type situations and I know life is not going to become rosy all of a sudden.

 

[Electronic Music]

I'm planning on it, and feel confident in that decision. But the date is somewhat far, and while I highly doubt my mind will be changed, nothing is truly a 100% chance.

 

[endofsirens]

like 95% sure. even if i made it to being 'old' somehow i think id still ctb because i dont want to deal with immobility/dementia any other things like that

 

[nofun.intended]

i don't see myself growing old because i don't see a future for myself. i've given up trying to make one a while ago

 

[lifeiscrap]

There should be a third option for an early death that has a direct link to depression/stress, such as the effects of drinking too much or heart failure. I personally feel like there is an extremely good chance I will die by suicide because of how easily I go into that mindset, and how this all started so early on in my life. I remember reading a study that claimed having a serious mental illness took an average of 20 years off a normal lifespan.

 

[sleepyturtle]

ive had multiple near death experiences that should have but (unfortunately) did not kill me, outside of some complete freak accident Actually killing me i dont think theres any possibility. maybe health issues stemming from my self destructive tendencies

 

[Viranamari]

I voted no since I can never be 100% sure. Plus if a natural death occurs, mind as well die from that instead of CTB, right? However, CTB is something I consider every now and then but I'm not 100% sure I want to do it

 

[CTB Dream]

Rly want ctb soon this way escp all pain sufferi etc, prvlm if no ctb this awful hpn posbl dementi more illne etc all dtriort this escp now bttr rly afraid scary .need mthod

 

[MentalStefan]

In my country suicide is a natural death

 

[Lysander]

you can never fully know, but i'd like to take my own life in a way that i'm in control of. i'm not fully opposed to the idea of suddenly getting some illness thatd kill me, though, i'd just rather have that sort of ultimate power over myself

 

[nofun.intended]

In my country suicide is a natural death

what country are you from

 

[missingpeace]

I'm suffering way too much to wait for a natural death, don't know when I will ctb but I know I definitely will.

 

[MentalStefan]

what country are you from

Sorry, I'd rather not reveal this information...

However I can say that it is an Eastern European country which was in comunist bloc (additionally I can reveal it's neither Russia nor Ukraine)

 

[dumpstermagic]

oh yes. if i even make it this far, wasting away from old age seems like the worst possible ending someone could ever have. with any luck, my lifestyle and idealizations will take me out well before then.

 

[Pluto]

Yeah everyone I fucked up the poll. I meant death caused by aging process/dying from old age.

In that case, my vote is redundant.

I don't recommend anybody die of old age. It can be absolutely horrific. As soon as cognitive functions are on the way out, I would draw a line in the sand. I wouldn't want to lose abilities like walking and using a toilet, either.

 

[HadItAll]

differently i'm hoping N comes back on the market soon,

Is there any hope it might?

 

[Darkover]

Is there any hope it might?

well someone new did start selling it but they might turn out to be at best unreliable or a scammer we can only hope that someone does start selling it soon

 

[hellispink]

I am pretty sure I will do it before any other "unintentional " thing kills me. However if i am wrong welcome welcome death i dont care. I just wanna die regardless

 

[TAW122]

I cannot be 100%, but maybe 99.99% sure that I will CTB beacuse I would rather not (even if I'm healthy at like 80, 90 years of age) deteriorate away in a nursing home and then succumb to whatever illness or condition that gets me by then. Most likely, I will have CTB'd long before that time comes (I'm in my 30's). Chances are, I may likely have some adverse health event once I reach my 50's or 60's even and if I know my prognosis is poor, I'd save myself the trouble of all the anguish, undignified exit at the hands of nature, natural causes, or even be at the mercy of others. As someone who is very independent and heavily values bodily autonomy, I cannot see myself to be content or find it acceptable to be under someone else's care. I'd rather be dead than to have someone take care of me, make decisions for me, and that comes before becoming a burden. (Yes, personally I would rather not be a burden, and even if I'm not one, I'd still rather be independent and have a quality of life that I deem reasonable for me).

 

[Ghoste]

Yes, I am 100% sure. I have nothing left to live for, and I'll try again and again until it works. The thought of dying of natural causes rather than CTB makes me hyperventilate. I deserve to die on my own terms, so I'll ensure its that way.

 

[doneWithThisSh1t]

about 99% sure, have had these kinds of thoughts for over 6 years at this point getting worse every year. Taking time to enjoy myself these days and when the time is right I'm almost certain I'll be catching the bus.

 

[Touhou]

Not anytime soon, but seeing as I'd rather not have to endure the process of dying from "old age" (dementia, cancer, etc), I'll probably CTB around 65 before I die of natural causes.

 

[gottablast888]

Natural premature ctb is preferable. Because of ppls reactions to the way someone died

 

[froznrobt]

I tend to starve myself, health is pretty bad anyways, I got no appetite whatsoever too, if starving doesn't work, dehydration does, so yeah that's what I do but the only problem is it's a long process