Are there Asperger's here? What do you think of your life?

[disabledlife]

Are you still depressed by the annoyances of life? Do you often find yourself faced with things that you think you are doing well but which ultimately turn out to be bad rather than good? I have often had comments, posts that have been deleted in various forums, websites, it depresses me deeply.

I thought I was writing well, saying correct things, when I am not, and I did not know, we must always wait for the reaction of others, often hostile, to adapt to this bullshit of human society, this mold of standards imposed on us.

It has very often happened to me to find myself blocked, banned, from a forum, from a store, from a website, when I wished it did not happen like that, that I managed to understand what others wanted and didn't want.

Everything works in the implicit, you have to guess everything, if you are different and you make a simple mistake, everyone falls on you and considers you as a criminal, for a simple sentence said wrongly.

Same, a badly used mobile phone which makes believe that you are filming a person when not, you hide the screen because you consult confidential things like a bank account. thank you technology with their damn camera, always behind the screen, people jump on you and accuse you of things you did not do and, as you are weak, incapable, autism requires, of knowing how to defend oneself, knowing how to respond, especially in panic, this considers their accusations as legitimate and you are banned, censored, rejected.

I have never asked for anything in life, I have been forced into this life, in this body, in this autism no doubt, and when I want CTB, I am also punished, I wonder if I will go crazy if I do not can't find a quick way to leave. I would have liked the last moments of my life to be filled with happiness before leaving because it is often said that it is the emotional state that dictates the path you will take after a death.

My life is hell, permanently, I also suffer physically from other diseases, badly born, from bad parents and especially from a contemptuous country that hides behind human rights to clear itself of its crimes .

I am undoubtedly Asperger's, I have been waiting for a diagnosis for years, in France autistic people are despised, just like the disabled in general.

There are even pensions in Belgium to accommodate the French disabled, which are "French factories", a real place of boredom where the disabled are stuffed with medicines and left in unsanitary places without occupation, profit first of all. The managers of these penstions live off the money that the French State gives them against the accommodation of the disabled, for lack of space in France.

France has always made too little effort for the disabled, very few institutes, no help for autonomy from childhood for lack of money (school with auxiliary, accessibility, awareness ...), schools have rejected the disabled, censorship and placement in Belgium allows to hide all that.

Autistic people, including Aspergers, very often end up in psychiatric hospitals, often tied up in sterile rooms, with a bed screwed to the floor. No actual diagnosis, the rare public centers for Autism are so overcrowded that it even takes 6 years to get an appointment for a diagnosis or otherwise you sometimes have to spend 1000 euros to be diagnosed in the private sector, with a delay also.

The possible financial, human, material aid, recognition by a disability card, given by the public administrations which take care of the disabled are always done with a period of 6 months to 3 years for each file to pass in committee, again. , lack of budget to recruit more staff. Lack of will too. Apart from two presidents who had disabled people in their families and who had laws changed, other governments hardly ever did anything!

Driving a car is hell for Asperger's people, because you always have to be vigilant. Obtaining the permit was also hell, not to mention the constraints and the very high price in France!

Hope my thread fits here, I hope I was correct, that I didn't do something wrong without knowing it. I'm chattering my teeth right now, panicking about the consequences of this thread and my account. I am in the same state of panic everywhere when I do things, write comments, etc.

 

[BreakTheCycle]

Asperger sucks. They say that i might have this but they can't tell for sure because of the other mentall illnesses, so I'm also not diagnosed.
For me the hardest part of this is the masking. I don't even rly know who I'm supposed to be under all these things that i just copied from other people.
Here in Germany it looks a little better for disabled people as long as u can do some work. But we also have these facilitys which are there to help, when they actually just let them do something as useless as possible as it seems so the time wents by. Meds all inclusive.

Being born a way that doesn't seem to fit in the rest of society sucks and feels like u have been dealt a bad hand. Being fucked from the very beginning.

I hope it get's better for u. U find something to put your energy in. Something u truely have interest for. Something worth living.

Much luck.

 

[xLosthopex]

I'm autistic but it went undiagnosed up until relatively recently, and not getting the right help I needed from an early age probably was the cause of many of the issues I have now

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

According to a couple of people in the medical field I have high functioning autism. Its one of the reasons I'm going to kill myself. I can't function with the same autonomy a normal person would. All of it stems from being unable to deal with interacting with people for very long. Even if I got good at it, it would be a facade. I don't want to fake enjoyment or pleasantness around people. You can't get anywhere in life without interacting with other people though, so, I'm writing my life off as a loss.

Listen to me, thread poster. I don't know how it works in France, I'm American. I've used search engines to look up methods more times than I can remember. Every week or so I look up suicide discussions on reddit to remind myself I'm not crazy. I've called suicide hotlines. Nobody has ever come knocking on my door. I'm always vigilant, but I'm becoming less afraid. I think you will be okay.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I have Aspergers, I was diagnosed when I was a child. I think it is why I have struggled with living so much, this world is not meant for me. I have always had a hard time communicating and interacting with others and I am extremely sensitive to noise. I struggle doing things that others find easy and I easily get stressed out and overwhelmed. Overall, I simply just do not like living and nothing can change the way I feel about life.

 

[Snake of Eden]

My life is hell

 

[WatermelonMel]

Yes, doing even the simplest things like going outside is extremely difficult, I hate being around people. Feels like everyone is judging me for my every move.

Eye contact is the worst part, I would rather stab myself than make eye contact with strangers. When I was young, my teacher kept telling me to stop rolling my eyes at her and I didn't understand why because I didn't know what that meant at the time. People getting offended because you don't look at them makes things tougher than they already are.

There is no way to live like this.

 

[catwalk]

Diagnosed as a young kid, it has only gotten worse over the years. it's making me doom myself, more and more each year.

 

[disabledlife]

I also have a very high IQ, I belong to the High IQ associations, but people are ultra capitalists and have succeeded in their lives, are very tall, etc. I finally feel bad even though I'm not really alone anymore. But they share the opposite of what I want from this more egalitarian world, where everyone has their place, all born the same, without jealousy or natural privilege, that everything is honestly earned.

People who have a high IQ but are not Aspergers tend to misunderstand and reject Asperger's, even high IQs can be intellectually lazy!

Because of my very high intellectual potential, I see clearly how humanity is made and that, inevitably, I hate humans, everyone except people who want to think, who have a heart, that they know they must live taking into account the existence of others, with a reciprocal fair return.

It is for this reason that I have a very bad temper, that I am extremely resentful, I hate injustice and there is no prescription for any malicious acts, all justice must be done according to the law of Tallion, but as I cannot do anything to change, I am far from being the only one to think like this, I want BTC, in the most violent way possible, but without harming others or their property.

I have already written a thread on my story with my genetic disease "My history of my life and my rant of my life.", And a long post on the thread "Things that you hate about humans / society?" created by @LONE WOLF.

I would like something to shock the world and serve as a lesson to change things for the good starting with ensuring that children can be born well without disease, all equal everywhere, healthy, with the same chances of success their life, etc. Like that there will be no birth already disadvantaged, rejected from the start, rejected from love, live alone ...

In France, it is said that procreation is a universal human right that even the worst families, the worst patients can have children, even after social services have withdrawn their previous children, yes there are families who will until the fifteenth child because the fourteen others were taken from them for mistreatment!

This universal procreation right which makes children already disadvantaged, once they become adults, will not even be able to access love (lack of money, rejected jobs, housing, others ...) and therefore not being able to access procreation. Should rape and forced love be legalized to guarantee this universal right to procreation? It is totally absurd and stupid.

With a procreation permit and compulsory internships to become parents, children would finally be equal and would all have the right to the same chance to find love and to procreate in turn to create healthy, well-educated children and so on. , finally in a country with the procreation permit, procreation would be more accessible than in a country with a false universal right to procreate according to human rights!

Human rights, which no country respects moreover, must see the laws, the restrictions on "democracy", which has democracy only in name, a true democracy is the people who vote the laws, directly , different from the oligarchies, admittedly elected, which make up most of the countries in the world!

So yes, there are still a few countries whose life is satisfactory, but still far from the ideal (New Zealand, Scandinavian countries, Switzerland), but rare are the countries to legalize the right to be helped to die with dignity. .

This right would be the ultimate freedom when one considers one's life insastifying, whatever one's birth, after having maturely and thoughtfully thought about it, the time to see possible chances of finding solutions to live again if one wishes it! It is absurd, to vomit that this right is forbidden to us, torture, see a crime to force people in CTB out of panic not to be able to do it anymore!

 

[The Lonely]

To be aware of my "different" functioning system has't being any helpful….

People get pissed off me even here at SS(…)

As I do lots of searchings about my method (N)... It upsets people…

Like yesterday happened again… : someone mentioned that every time I post something here people think: "Geez that's you again bringing bad news"….

Well … Is being such a lonely life…. :/

 

[disabledlife]

Be careful, on SS, there are pro-lifes who try to spoil the atmosphere of the forum, to prevent people from being free to choose what they want out of their existence. The site and the community, which is predominantly for the chosen end of life, do everything to isolate and rule out pro-lifes.

Do not forget that on this forum there is also a recovery session for all people who choose solutions to live again, in addition to this "Suicide" forum, and everyone is free to post wherever they want, what the pro -lifes would try to ban.

I'm not surprised that there are people who criticize the choices for N, SN, etc, who try to remove all the resources, or even shut down the site, the pro-lifes have no limit to lock us up in life and push us, out of desperation to flee as quickly as possible, which spoils the part of the life that we would like to live if we were left with the guaranteed choice of being able to leave at any time!

A right to die with dignity can save lives by simply reassuring people of the presence of their choice, such as being born well with a procreation permit which leaves the choice of chances to succeed in life! But backward people, pro-lifes, obscurantists, conservatives, backward-looking people, people who are fundamentalists spoil any development of a society that could be ideal and egalitarian for everyone.

I am very enraged to note that this minority frozen in the obscurantist is capable, by its virulence to dictate their laws to us and to force us to live in their ideals frozen in the nothingness! Besides, it causes wars in the world (especially in the Middle East, with a country that is sinking at the moment, my thoughts are with the citizens who are victims of Afghanistan, sad to see what fundamentalism is capable of doing).

This forum is the ultimate escape route that remains on the internet when everything has failed, to my knowledge in any case, let's preserve it.

 

[fox_wannabe]

I will answer in simple tags as I don't want to make my explanation for considering suicide boring,
Like wtf nobody has time for reading long suicide notes. (just kidding)
No long lasting friends, too self aware, hate that I was born, life is constant striving, hate being machine programmed by nature, capable of suffering and feeling being in cold mechanical world, stress, no future prospects, not being able to have relationship, cannot socialize well, very high iq, to live is to lie to yourself that is basics of survival, being beta, homicidal thoughts, suicidal thoughts, antinatalist, couldn't give a fuck anymore as there is nothing worth to give a fuck about: except that mom would be sad which holds me back, depression, bipolar, cptsd, long history of bullying abuse and neglect in early childhood.

Ramen
If you want me to elaborate or talk in dms about certain topics quote me or respond.

 

[The Lonely]

Be careful, on SS, there are pro-lifes who try to spoil the atmosphere of the forum, to prevent people from being free to choose what they want out of their existence. The site and the community, which is predominantly for the chosen end of life, do everything to isolate and rule out pro-lifes.

Do not forget that on this forum there is also a recovery session for all people who choose solutions to live again, in addition to this "Suicide" forum, and everyone is free to post wherever they want, what the pro -lifes would try to ban.

I'm not surprised that there are people who criticize the choices for N, SN, etc, who try to remove all the resources, or even shut down the site, the pro-lifes have no limit to lock us up in life and push us, out of desperation to flee as quickly as possible, which spoils the part of the life that we would like to live if we were left with the guaranteed choice of being able to leave at any time!

A right to die with dignity can save lives by simply reassuring people of the presence of their choice, such as being born well with a procreation permit which leaves the choice of chances to succeed in life! But backward people, pro-lifes, obscurantists, conservatives, backward-looking people, people who are fundamentalists spoil any development of a society that could be ideal and egalitarian for everyone.

I am very enraged to note that this minority frozen in the obscurantist is capable, by its virulence to dictate their laws to us and to force us to live in their ideals frozen in the nothingness! Besides, it causes wars in the world (especially in the Middle East, with a country that is sinking at the moment, my thoughts are with the citizens who are victims of Afghanistan, sad to see what fundamentalism is capable of doing).

This forum is the ultimate escape route that remains on the internet when everything has failed, to my knowledge in any case, let's preserve it.

NO!
The thing is that they complain as I bring issues Against my own method!!
(They think I am the pro-lifer!) when I am only doing my basic research (…)

As I am studying this to myself…. I am digging deep, and posting…
But posting about possible not "happy endings" about the method (N) makes people mad… (as I noticed recently)….

I am stressing all the possibilities about my method, because
I prefer to know (in advance) what I am going to have… In order to prepare myself for(…)

(That's my functioning way… with pretty much everything)…

The thing is that Sometimes I just don't know how to sugar coat things…