are there any buddhists here? what does buddhism say about suicide

[Blue Ocean]

I firmly believe in the supernatural phenomena but I am trying to find what religion is true

 

[fallingleaves]

I resonate with Buddhist philosophy but consider myself a spiritual eclectic. My understanding is that some sects of Buddhism say that suicide will lead to a 'bad' reincarnation due to bad karma from a suicide, but this also depends on the other actions in your life. I don't think that the Buddha knew everything and he made it clear that he didn't know everything. Still, I think it's reasonable to consider what bad karma your suicide could create, if that's something that is important to you.

"Make of yourself a light,"
said the Buddha,
before he died.
I think of this every morning
as the east begins
to tear off its many clouds
of darkness, to send up the first
signal — a white fan
streaked with pink and violet,
even green.
An old man, he lay down
between two sala trees,
and he might have said anything,
knowing it was his final hour.
The light burns upward,
it thickens and settles over the fields.
Around him, the villagers gathered
and stretched forward to listen.
Even before the sun itself
hangs, disattached, in the blue air,
I am touched everywhere
by its ocean of yellow waves.
No doubt he thought of everything
that had happened in his difficult life.
And then I feel the sun itself
as it blazes over the hills,
like a million flowers on fire —
clearly I'm not needed,
yet I feel myself turning
into something of inexplicable value.
Slowly, beneath the branches,
he raised his head.
He looked into the faces of that frightened crowd."

— Mary Oliver

 

[Blue Ocean]

I want to ctb one day but I fear accumulating bad karma