Anyone wonder what itd be like to be "Normal" again?

[Gaming Chicken]

Like, there's no way I'm the only one that went from being relatively happy on a daily basis to where I am now. So what do the happy people think about? What goes therough their head on a momentary basis. What would it be like to have their mentality in the days where I get overly depressed? Anyone else?

 

[Pancake]

I don't wonder, because I remember. I remember being a very happy person and I miss that state of mind a lot. I'd look forward to tomorrow and when I was depressed, I'd laugh it off. I'd tell myself that there's always tomorrow. It doesn't work anymore, though. Tomorrow is no longer all that enticing.

 

[LittleJem]

I've had normal about a total of one or two weeks in my life. The little reprieve I had - both from supplements and not medications. Then it stopped working. The rest of my life either high on drugs or torment.

 

[Zaragoza]

It won't be normal again, at least for me. After realizing unfixable problems such as autism and many more problems (physically like having a deformed skull or mentally such as my autism), my life hasn't been the same and won't be because no matter what there is no solution to it. I have never been normal, i was born weird but it took time to realize. I don't belong to society and being born was a mistake for me

 

[Forever Sleep]

I wonder but I don't remember- I think I've been a pessimist for as long as I can remember..

 

[StillBreathing]

When I think back at that time I feel like it is someone else's memories. I cannot relate to it at all.

I think when you have been depressed long enough it becomes your new normal, the pathways in your brain changes and will be very hard to revert.

 

[Duochrome-Seahorse]

I actually forgot all the times I've been normal. Everytime people talk about me from 4-6 years ago, my mind has entirely destroyed those memories that there's nothing to look back to. But what I do remember is that I had friends, a dream job, I went out and traveled, I was able to do so much things and time felt so slow. But now I can't seem to find that part of me I lost long ago...

 

[orca87]

I don't wonder, because I remember. I remember being a very happy person and I miss that state of mind a lot. I'd look forward to tomorrow and when I was depressed, I'd laugh it off. I'd tell myself that there's always tomorrow. It doesn't work anymore, though. Tomorrow is no longer all that enticing.

this one hit me with uttermost brutality. It is exactly to the letter how I feel.

 

[TheSadStranger]

Like, there's no way I'm the only one that went from being relatively happy on a daily basis to where I am now. So what do the happy people think about? What goes therough their head on a momentary basis. What would it be like to have their mentality in the days where I get overly depressed? Anyone else?

I remember it very clearly. It wasn't that long ago, but I don't have control over it anymore. Life happens and sometimes you get the short end of the stick. I don't know your situation, but if you have a choice and I mean an actual choice you should probably seek help or should consider your blessings. Try to reach out and find something that might make you happy.

 

[Mirrory Me]

I just realized myself that I no longer enjoy the same things that are somehow in the way of my mental / spiritual development, or that I can't escape my problems to things that should produce pleasure.

 

[outrider567]

With her dead, its absolutely impossible for me to be normal, or anything like it, I'm in a hell, where there is no way out of except to CTB

 

[downndone2]

I need a lot of money and it would be. I guess my first step was starting my job but just the first day over and I still want to die

 

[WonderfulWeatherDIE]

Cant remember the last time i was happy or normal. I think i was never really happy or normal.

 

[SatouR]

I dont feel anything anymore and the last thing I can remember is sadness and pain.
Going back to my Normal wouldn't change anything and I can't imagine what it would be like to live without depression.

 

[man_in_red:)]

nah

 

[bleakhouse]

I've literally never been normal. my personality is fucked,

I've had some good times but they were actually just episodes of hypomania, delusions.

I think a lot about like what I'd be if I could be anything ..