I have, and I was in the same mindset as you are now (not being at a point where I wanted things to end).
My advice is to lose any pride you have and speak to people. If you have decent family, speak to them. Don't need to open up fully, but tell them you need help finding a therapist, and support or you will fail and it will get worst. Therapist helps some, and doesn't others. But another benefit is it will make it official. Then you can speak to any professors, show them proof, and ask understanding - extended deadlines, some extra support after the lectures and guidance. If you have any friends, even if you think they are not that close - open up, don't have to completely. But tell them you are struggling in life and it will get really ugly fast if you don't get some support, ask for some babysitting. Grasp at any opporunity and finish it.
I wish this is what I would've done. But I was embarassed and didn't tell the uni. I was in one of the top unis, and was doing well first half, but attendance wasn't mandatory. I hated the course, no options to modify the units I was doing, so I stopped attending for almost half a year. Failed exams. Didn't study or go to the re-sits. And then quit right before getting kicked out (not even sure how it's registered on the system -- kicked out or quit).
I didn't care what will happen, I thought I will just work in a factory or a store on a minimum wage and whatever, figure things out. Well things turned out really ugly, negative bank balance, new student accomodation lease, -3k in debt and had to pay 3k for the next quarter of the accomodotion any day. Could not find any job. Only Job I found was in a factory, so back breaking that I quit after a day, just physically couldn't do it.
Thankfully I told my parents, and they managed to get the lease cancelled, and let me stay with them, and even got me a job in some more manageable manual labour place. But they were devastated as they thought my future was so bright and I gave up on it, all of a sudden without speaking to them. This was almost 6 years ago and they still have no idea it was depression or that I am suicidal. I have some self-harm scars which I hide under a long sports elbow sleeve, but I think my mom knows, as it's weird I always wore that.
Anyway... now, thankfully, I have managed to build a great career through personal development and applying at entry level jobs with pet projects I made, in the same field i studied. So I am ok money wise from this decision, but not many are lucky, and it was such a painful ride that I wish I would've just asked for help. Unless someone plans to end their life 100% then it's easier not to give up and just go the standard way about.
My advice is to lose any pride you have and speak to people. If you have decent family, speak to them. Don't need to open up fully, but tell them you need help finding a therapist, and support or you will fail and it will get worst. Therapist helps some, and doesn't others. But another benefit is it will make it official. Then you can speak to any professors, show them proof, and ask understanding - extended deadlines, some extra support after the lectures and guidance. If you have any friends, even if you think they are not that close - open up, don't have to completely. But tell them you are struggling in life and it will get really ugly fast if you don't get some support, ask for some babysitting. Grasp at any opporunity and finish it.
I wish this is what I would've done. But I was embarassed and didn't tell the uni. I was in one of the top unis, and was doing well first half, but attendance wasn't mandatory. I hated the course, no options to modify the units I was doing, so I stopped attending for almost half a year. Failed exams. Didn't study or go to the re-sits. And then quit right before getting kicked out (not even sure how it's registered on the system -- kicked out or quit).
I didn't care what will happen, I thought I will just work in a factory or a store on a minimum wage and whatever, figure things out. Well things turned out really ugly, negative bank balance, new student accomodation lease, -3k in debt and had to pay 3k for the next quarter of the accomodotion any day. Could not find any job. Only Job I found was in a factory, so back breaking that I quit after a day, just physically couldn't do it.
Thankfully I told my parents, and they managed to get the lease cancelled, and let me stay with them, and even got me a job in some more manageable manual labour place. But they were devastated as they thought my future was so bright and I gave up on it, all of a sudden without speaking to them. This was almost 6 years ago and they still have no idea it was depression or that I am suicidal. I have some self-harm scars which I hide under a long sports elbow sleeve, but I think my mom knows, as it's weird I always wore that.
Anyway... now, thankfully, I have managed to build a great career through personal development and applying at entry level jobs with pet projects I made, in the same field i studied. So I am ok money wise from this decision, but not many are lucky, and it was such a painful ride that I wish I would've just asked for help. Unless someone plans to end their life 100% then it's easier not to give up and just go the standard way about.
