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i love yoshi ^-^

i love yoshi ^-^

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Dec 23, 2024
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i feel like, i could spend a couple week writing my notes, make a little obituary even if no one will see it. i love to put in my heart into something. i hate my life, but i want to end it on a happy note. i want to list all the fun things at the end. i want to end it knowing that i will be happy. the thought of dying and being grateful for all that happened makes me so happy.
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
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Finally going WILL make me happy.
 
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i love yoshi ^-^

i love yoshi ^-^

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Dec 23, 2024
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Finally going WILL make me happy.
yes.. me too.. i hate the prospect of living any longer. but yet if i set myself a time and place to die i will be the happiest living person, knowing that there's nothing to worry about, knowing that even if i do something wrong, it will all end.
 
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darkest

darkest

Trapped in this cycle, a figure of eight
Feb 2, 2024
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yea, it's actually why I don't CTB immediately whenever I have the chance as I'm waiting to enjoy a few things first.
 
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i love yoshi ^-^

i love yoshi ^-^

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Dec 23, 2024
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yea, it's actually why I don't CTB immediately whenever I have the chance as I'm waiting to enjoy a few things first.
me too. it prevents me from impulse decision.
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
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hehe~ I want to write something like that too! :D Like a memories diary about the good years! ^_^ before everything sucked~ :( Anyways, yeah, I wish I was able to be killed back near the end of when things were still great or even sewer slide before things went as far downhill as they are now~ :( but well, that never happened, so I can't go out happy unfortunately~ :(
 
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i love yoshi ^-^

i love yoshi ^-^

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Dec 23, 2024
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hehe~ I want to write something like that too! :D Like a memories diary about the good years! ^_^ before everything sucked~ :( Anyways, yeah, I wish I was able to be killed back near the end of when things were still great or even sewer slide before things went as far downhill as they are now~ :( but well, that never happened, so I can't go out happy unfortunately~ :(
i have some strange happy moments intertwined in my horrible ones. it's mostly times i booted up a game, forgot about everything, spent an hour playing... that game provided me comfort, in the worst time ever ;-;

i also wish i was killed.. i remember one time, a car almost ran over me at full speed. that was a close call and i often wish it was close enough T_T
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
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I haven't been happy in a long time. There's not a lot left for me to do in this world. I'm not going to die happy, I'll die full of regret and sadness and pain and guilt and loneliness. I just hope I'll be free.
 
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ALXxᛦ

ALXxᛦ

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Nov 28, 2024
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That would be nice but i would not want to die if i was happy i dont think but i really wish i was
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
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i have some strange happy moments intertwined in my horrible ones. it's mostly times i booted up a game, forgot about everything, spent an hour playing... that game provided me comfort, in the worst time ever ;-;

i also wish i was killed.. i remember one time, a car almost ran over me at full speed. that was a close call and i often wish it was close enough T_T
hehe~ Well, I'm glad you found happiness inn the heartache then~ :) It sounds pleasant and kinda wholesome tbh~ :) I struggle with gratefulness and jealousy myself, so it's kinda~ :(

sorry to hear~ >_< so unlucky! altho, granted, if it hadn't killed you, that'd be even worse! >_< You never really know how things like that turn out unfortunately~ :(
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
674
This is a nice idea, but I'm incapable of being happy anymore. I can remember happiness, but it just makes me sad that I no longer experience it. When I die I just hope it will be peaceful.
 
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yowai

yowai

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Aug 28, 2024
337
This reminds me of that scene in AHS season 1 when the old lady decides to kill herself and takes pills with alcohol while dancing to some music and enjoying herself before passing out lol
 
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