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metfan647

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Jun 12, 2025
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I have had this urge recently to just quit my job and go travelling for a good while now. The only thing is I went on two solo city breaks in Europe earlier this year and didn't enjoy it at all (partly as it was just freezing cold).

I don't really enjoy the things I used to anymore but I figured I could burn the modest amount of savings I have left rather than it end up with people who I don't want having it. It would be enough to do a little frugal trip to SE Asia for a couple of months so really not much. I mean, I could probably max out a few overdrafts too and prolong that on the banks' expense. Whilst there I'd at least get a bit of sun and soak up some novel adventures (even if not for the sake of memories)

I see a few possible scenarios:

1. I have an awakening and realise life's worth living and return and give life another shot

2. I tie up lose ends here, quit my job, leave the UK so there's nothing to return to. I'll return only with enough to get a hotel for a few nights and CTB

3. Destination abroad ends up being a very good place to CTB (putting aside the highly inconsiderate act of killing myself abroad and having my family sort out my mess. Although I don't greatly care for them) and opens the door to easier access to either SN or high spots. Being isolated, depressed and in an unfamiliar land may also push me to a darker place.

Has anyone here made such plans or doing something similiar?
 
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XiaroX

XiaroX

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Dec 5, 2025
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I want to give you a more detailed reply, but can't right now. But, a few times I have tried to go on a trip that would be 'the end'. I boxed up my things, deleted my online correspondences (for other people's privacy). Actually, I still live with most of my things boxed up, and everything ready to go in a backpack and suitcase, with the backpack being the most essential. I suppose it's a state of mind, never feeling like I had a permanent home.

OK. When I travelled, I guess I hoped to figure out some way to end things while on a high note. That would have been meaningful to me.

I didn't manage, and ended up with major crashes, every time. But, I still actually think it was good for me to try, even though I couldn't interact with people deeply.
 
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OOUUneverover

OOUUneverover

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Nov 19, 2025
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I'd really like to ctb in the mountains. I don't know if that will happen, but it would be nice.
 
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gunmetalblue11

gunmetalblue11

Artistic puppy
Oct 31, 2025
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If it was possible i'd travel back to my home country to catch the bus there.
I hope that if dropping everything and traveling is your final calling, that it goes well for you.
 
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RoadtoFreedomTwo

RoadtoFreedomTwo

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May 28, 2025
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I have had this urge recently to just quit my job and go travelling for a good while now. The only thing is I went on two solo city breaks in Europe earlier this year and didn't enjoy it at all (partly as it was just freezing cold).

I don't really enjoy the things I used to anymore but I figured I could burn the modest amount of savings I have left rather than it end up with people who I don't want having it. It would be enough to do a little frugal trip to SE Asia for a couple of months so really not much. I mean, I could probably max out a few overdrafts too and prolong that on the banks' expense. Whilst there I'd at least get a bit of sun and soak up some novel adventures (even if not for the sake of memories)

I see a few possible scenarios:

1. I have an awakening and realise life's worth living and return and give life another shot

2. I tie up lose ends here, quit my job, leave the UK so there's nothing to return to. I'll return only with enough to get a hotel for a few nights and CTB

3. Destination abroad ends up being a very good place to CTB (putting aside the highly inconsiderate act of killing myself abroad and having my family sort out my mess. Although I don't greatly care for them) and opens the door to easier access to either SN or high spots. Being isolated, depressed and in an unfamiliar land may also push me to a darker place.

Has anyone here made such plans or doing something similiar?
Yes, I had a similar thought process: quit my job, sell all my shit, and have been traveling a few months in the US by car while burning through savings/401(k) and racking up credit card debt (I think it's around $80,000)

I thought anything could happen, so why not! Maybe I'd fall in love, find a new perspective, try some new drugs and ultimately decide to fix everything / get healthy… but nope. Don't get me wrong, there's been lots of good food, sex, experiences, etc. But nothing close to making me want to stay. There's lots of stress in planning and packing constantly, I wish I could've just rotted away in my nice apartment instead.

However, you've got nothing to lose and can always fix life later if you decide to. Ghosting everyone and putting myself in debt hasn't really made it easier to CTB necessarily. Hope that helps, good luck
 
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indianachrome

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Nov 1, 2025
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I have had this urge recently to just quit my job and go travelling for a good while now. The only thing is I went on two solo city breaks in Europe earlier this year and didn't enjoy it at all (partly as it was just freezing cold).

I don't really enjoy the things I used to anymore but I figured I could burn the modest amount of savings I have left rather than it end up with people who I don't want having it. It would be enough to do a little frugal trip to SE Asia for a couple of months so really not much. I mean, I could probably max out a few overdrafts too and prolong that on the banks' expense. Whilst there I'd at least get a bit of sun and soak up some novel adventures (even if not for the sake of memories)

I see a few possible scenarios:

1. I have an awakening and realise life's worth living and return and give life another shot

2. I tie up lose ends here, quit my job, leave the UK so there's nothing to return to. I'll return only with enough to get a hotel for a few nights and CTB

3. Destination abroad ends up being a very good place to CTB (putting aside the highly inconsiderate act of killing myself abroad and having my family sort out my mess. Although I don't greatly care for them) and opens the door to easier access to either SN or high spots. Being isolated, depressed and in an unfamiliar land may also push me to a darker place.

Has anyone here made such plans or doing something similiar?
I think going to Thailand would be a fantastic idea. I like going there for 2 weeks to unwind. Hopefully you are not struggling with addiction issues because they can flare up there but it would be worth a shot I think!
 
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Alpacachino

Alpacachino

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Nov 26, 2025
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I've been wanting to travel for some time now. I'll probably start traveling at some point close to my date.
 
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RoadtoFreedomTwo

RoadtoFreedomTwo

Member
May 28, 2025
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I'd really like to ctb in the mountains. I don't know if that will happen, but it would be nice.
Amen! I got an Airbnb last weekend in the woods. There were neighbors nearby, but I stayed in the backyard naked most of the time hopping between the sauna, hot tub, and a shower. Plus food, sex, weed, etc.

It had a suitable hanging spot but I chickened out the last minute. However, I've been practicing this week and am close to successfully partial hanging. It would've been such a great place to go, though!

All that to say agreed and that you should find a nice place on Airbnb or national park! Good luck!
 
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MrsT-800

MrsT-800

Be the helper of my soul O God
Nov 25, 2025
14
I recently went home. We all live across the ocean now. But I was home, in Germany, and speaking my language… I don't really care to travel so much as to be home. I felt so much better. I couldn't want to die when I'm there.
 
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MicahBell

MicahBell

we are not horses.
Feb 11, 2025
71
I have had this urge recently to just quit my job and go travelling for a good while now. The only thing is I went on two solo city breaks in Europe earlier this year and didn't enjoy it at all (partly as it was just freezing cold).

I don't really enjoy the things I used to anymore but I figured I could burn the modest amount of savings I have left rather than it end up with people who I don't want having it. It would be enough to do a little frugal trip to SE Asia for a couple of months so really not much. I mean, I could probably max out a few overdrafts too and prolong that on the banks' expense. Whilst there I'd at least get a bit of sun and soak up some novel adventures (even if not for the sake of memories)

I see a few possible scenarios:

1. I have an awakening and realise life's worth living and return and give life another shot

2. I tie up lose ends here, quit my job, leave the UK so there's nothing to return to. I'll return only with enough to get a hotel for a few nights and CTB

3. Destination abroad ends up being a very good place to CTB (putting aside the highly inconsiderate act of killing myself abroad and having my family sort out my mess. Although I don't greatly care for them) and opens the door to easier access to either SN or high spots. Being isolated, depressed and in an unfamiliar land may also push me to a darker place.

Has anyone here made such plans or doing something similiar?
I don't have the money to travel but I live in a place that doesn't really feel like home. Its hard to imagine dying here.
 
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astroproto

astroproto

and soon enough, i wont feel real
Nov 17, 2025
51
I don't have the money to travel but I live in a place that doesn't really feel like home. Its hard to imagine dying here.
Same, if only I had the money, I definitely would. I'd love to see some snow or aurora before I die.
 
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MicahBell

MicahBell

we are not horses.
Feb 11, 2025
71
Same, if only I had the money, I definitely would. I'd love to see some snow or aurora before I die.
I'd love to die in a snowy place. I want to go up to rocky mountain national park maybe. Its beautiful up there and people disappear there all the time.
 
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darksouls

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May 10, 2025
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I would like to spend some time in nature in a forest cabin far away from people and admire one last time what humanity will destroy
 
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FadingSnowFake

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Nov 25, 2024
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If you have the urge, I'd say go for it and keep your options open. You may just end up enjoying yourself, or at least the sunny weather. You don't really have anything to lose if you already feel that life as you know it now is not working, right?

I've worked in foreign countries and can somewhat relate to your thinking. I wasn't suicidal then but it felt like restarting my life, with anything that can happen, or not. As for me now, no energy to travel, and being alone in beautiful new places makes me feel worse if I can't share the moment with my someone.

I wish you safe travels either way 🤗
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I read that as 'time travel' to begin with. Like- shit- we can do that? 😆

I suppose I've toyed with it. Not seriously though. I'm not sure there are specific countries I'd want to see. I love nature. I'd love to see some beautiful landscapes before I go. Not sure I can be bothered with all the travelling though. I don't like being around people too so, that tends to taint most experiences.

I actually doubt I'll ever leave the UK now. But, there are still places here I would like to visit or revisit. Again though- I'm just so lazy now and people averse. I wonder whether it would be worth it.

A little like you- I have taken myself off to places. Nothing massively adventurous but even those times, it didn't always feel worth the effort- or the money. I do actually want to leave behind a reasonable amount to ensure what remains of my family won't need to deal with my mess when I've gone. Plus, I don't know when I can go- is the other issue. I'm waiting for my Dad to go first. So- I can't really go blowing money now. I need it to pay the bills- boringly.

I think your reasoning is sound though. I think- if I were a different person, I'd definitely do it. I'm making do with video games I guess instead. I kind of feel like I have visited other worlds through them.
 
Chemi

Chemi

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Nov 25, 2025
238
Planet Earth is incredibly pretty and i love traveling. Sadly the humans living on it are rather annoying to deal with.
 
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rustybee

rustybee

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Dec 8, 2025
6
I can't travel now even if I wanted to. Such is life sometimes I guess.
 
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LittleBlackCat

LittleBlackCat

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Feb 6, 2020
329
I personally love travelling and I am considering a long trip before CTB. I definitely won't be CTB without visiting at least a few more places.
Also thought about quitting job and travelling/running down savings until it's time to go.
 
XiaroX

XiaroX

Member
Dec 5, 2025
60
Amen! I got an Airbnb last weekend in the woods. There were neighbors nearby, but I stayed in the backyard naked most of the time hopping between the sauna, hot tub, and a shower. Plus food, sex, weed, etc.

It had a suitable hanging spot but I chickened out the last minute. However, I've been practicing this week and am close to successfully partial hanging. It would've been such a great place to go, though!

All that to say agreed and that you should find a nice place on Airbnb or national park! Good luck!
I searched a lot of Airbnbs trying to find a good spot to hang myself, but in the end, the one I chose rejected me, probably because I seemed weird because I had no social media accounts. But, I understand, and I didn't really want to inhibit their livelihood.
 
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metfan647

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Jun 12, 2025
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I personally love travelling and I am considering a long trip before CTB. I definitely won't be CTB without visiting at least a few more places.
Also thought about quitting job and travelling/running down savings until it's time to go.

Which countries could end up on your itinerary?
 

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