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Mizzmini45

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2019
447
I'm afraid of life
Me to .I'm actually more afraid of living. I know what will and can happen. I'm afraid what I can see here and now. I can't be afraid of the afterlife because well I don't see it. Sure that could happen but couldn't happen. But I know for certain human suffering and what it takes by living through ones mortality because I can see it. I'll take my chances and go with a early death
 
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Thatdude

Life is temporary, death is permanent
Sep 26, 2019
473
There is a few things I worry about with it.


Like others, the biggest is if I do off myself. Then going to hell.
Another thing I'm worried about is by being reincarnated.
Another is there being no afterlife. Like it would suck to be miserable and just die. And that is it.
 
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Maravillosa

Maravillosa

Господи помилуй — мир в Україні!
Sep 7, 2018
689
As a practicing Catholic, I am just a wee bit apprehensive about damning myself to Hell forever, or languishing for a protracted period in Purgatory before I am finally allowed to go to Heaven. I hope and pray that I can be in Heaven as soon as I leave this world, even if I end up killing myself. (I would be quite surprised if I do not ctb.)

I'm not sure what your beliefs are, but I know we live in a matrix that has been recycling our souls...until recently. The old fear was to not go toward the light, but as a spiritual teacher and healer who is also ready to "manually transcend" this fake reality, I believe that risk no longer exists. You will not reincarnate or be punished. Energy never dies, it only transpires. So no fear love.

That sounds so nice! Why is there no longer any risk? How did that happen? I love the line "Energy never dies, it only transpires."
 
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Asta

Asta

Specialist
Jun 7, 2019
318
Some of you might want to read the book entitled, "Messages" by Bonnie McEneaney. When her husband died on 9/11 in the World Trade Center, she began to have experiences that convinced her that her husband's spirit or soul was sending her signs and messages. Then she found that many others who had lost loved ones on that day had also been receiving communications, signs and visits.

There is more information available that there is an afterlife than any scientific proof that there is not. "People need to understand that the spiritual realm is their true home that they will return to, not a place that has to be earned...all souls go to one spirit world after death where everyone is treated with patience and love." - Dr. Michael Newton, author of "Journey of Souls"

A policeman's story: "I spent most of my working career in law enforcement, a detective in homicide, then many years as a Forensic photographer. In this type of work you see it all...almost anything you can name and every time you think you have seen it all,you are surprised by something new. This is the story of one thing that changed my life...

"My position took me to a suspected arson in a small suburb of my city. Five children had been burned to death in that fire, it was my job to photograph the bodies as they were retrieved from the ruins. After photographing them one by one as they were found they were laid on white sheets on the porch of the house to be photographed one last time. This being done I retreated to my automobile so that I could get myself back together and ponder what I had just done.

"As I sat behind the wheel of my car and thought about those children aged 1 thru 10 years I began to cry, something unusual for me, but I found myself sobbing almost uncontrollably for several minutes. During this time many things went through my mind including the thought I could not do this job any more, I had all but made the decision to resign.

"Then it happened, I felt something touch my shoulder, I turned and looked in the back seat. There was this beautiful little blond-haired girl in a white dress, she said "Mister, don't cry, we are all ok," and in the blink of an eye she was gone.

"I have only told this story to a very few people since I retired and to no one while I was working. The reason is I know many would say I was crazy, some would say it was just the moment, others would just look and maybe shake their heads. I would like to believe, and I do, that this little girl came back to comfort me when I needed it most.

" In closing, I would like to add that I had never seen these children in life, but had the occasion to view a picture of the five all together and without hesitation I knew exactly which one's spirit sat in my car that dreadful day. I continued to work in my field until my retirement in 1996." -- Harry
 
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stevieu

stevieu

~ Sleepwalking through every day ~
Feb 10, 2020
147
I'm agnostic/atheist but there has been a tiny thought about this in the back of my mind.

I certainly hope, when the time comes, that I just cease to be. No more feelings. No more angst and mental suffering. Whether I'm cremated, buried or used for 'medical science' I don't mind, as long as my brain has well and truly died and with it all my thoughts and memories.

Or something like that.
 
Egddios

Egddios

Specialist
Oct 27, 2018
395
When I look back on my first attempt which was alllllmost successful, I vividly remember waking up with a feeling of dread at still being here.
 
Hecatewashere

Hecatewashere

Member
Feb 7, 2020
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As a practicing Catholic, I am just a wee bit apprehensive about damning myself to Hell forever, or languishing for a protracted period in Purgatory before I am finally allowed to go to Heaven. I hope and pray that I can be in Heaven as soon as I leave this world, even if I end up killing myself. (I would be quite surprised if I do not ctb.)



That sounds so nice! Why is there no longer any risk? How did that happen? I love the line "Energy never dies, it only transpires."

It's an amazing thing!, I have been on a extreme spiritual awakening journey for five years, and throughout my expansion, and realizing who and what I am, I discovered the truth about the shit that is actually running this matrix. The whole God/Devil illusion, is and has been a lie for eons to keep human beings under mind control, fear, and survival mode. They have taken advantage of the binary physical reality of this dimension and trapped us in it...However there has been a mass collective awakening that is helping all human beings remember who and what they are, and realize that death has always been an illusion, and we have always been Gods with in ourselves. We are divinity and we are meant to literally create our own reality and live in our own projections - not a hive mind artificial one. That's why I don't fear leaving. It's actually a return to the highest essence of who I am, and the veil that trapped us in reincarnation is dissolving. I've seen it out of body in meditation and astral projection. There's so much I've experienced! And I feel that no matter how you exit this matrix, life will never be the same either way.
 
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Pan

Paragon
Oct 24, 2019
914
You are right. There may be reincarnation and we come back and relive this hell.
I'm not sure what your beliefs are, but I know we live in a matrix that has been recycling our souls...until recently. The old fear was to not go toward the light, but as a spiritual teacher and healer who is also ready to "manually transcend" this fake reality, I believe that risk no longer exists. You will not reincarnate or be punished. Energy never dies, it only transpires. So no fear love.
You won't see death members of your family, I believe. That doesn't mean you won't live again—-you will. Quantum physics assures me that I will cruise the multiverse until I find the right spot, if you will. There is no karma; you have paid for this life inTHIS LIFE. There is no light tunnel,no dead relatives, You will be reincarnated AS YOURSELF; there is no contract.
 
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Pan

Paragon
Oct 24, 2019
914
I am and am not afraid; that ambivalent reaction is fairly understandable. I can't help but think most agree with me and even those who are intent on ctb
 
Defenestrator

Defenestrator

Experienced
Jan 17, 2020
257
I'm not. I'm actually looking forward to dying to be honest.
 
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Alzag

New Member
Feb 10, 2020
4
I think the best response to this comes from a certain TV show- look away if you don't want to see any spoilers:

"They're never going to call a train to send us to the The Bad Place. They can't. Because we're already here. THIS is The Bad Place"
 
NeverMatteredAnyway

NeverMatteredAnyway

I matter now.
Jan 13, 2020
148
You are right. There may be reincarnation and we come back and relive this hell.
I fear this the most. Although sometimes I wonder if we're damned into coming back, until we finally end our life on our own terms. Like it gets us off this hell ride lol. I wonder if dying is like waking up from a bad dream. I wish I wasnt so afraid of it.
 
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Dystopic_Momento

Dystopic_Momento

Member
Dec 8, 2019
87
Like If you tried ctb and ends up living another life. wouldn't it makes the whole thing worthless. You died just to suffer again ?

Someone I know had a convincing argument that when we die we're immediately reborn into the same life we just lived (without change). If true, it'd explain why when I was a baby I screamed a lot. ;)
 
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NeverMatteredAnyway

NeverMatteredAnyway

I matter now.
Jan 13, 2020
148
LOL
Someone I know had a convincing argument that when we die we're immediately reborn into the same life we just lived (without change). If true, it'd explain why when I was a baby I screamed a lot. ;)
LOL
 
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TheLastSacrifice

TheLastSacrifice

Student
Feb 14, 2020
174
Not in the least. I only fear here and now.
 
Lost.

Lost.

Antidepressants and antipsychotics are posion
Feb 13, 2020
173
No. I am atheist. I don't belive in any afterlife.
 
Apathy79

Apathy79

Arcanist
Oct 13, 2019
489
I wouldn't be afraid of it due to ctb. If I'd lived a particularly evil life, I'd be downright terrified and doing anything I could to rectify that beforehand.
 
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SuicideBoys93

I am the lord of loneliness.
Feb 10, 2020
324
I'm over my life now, it can't be any worse than what I live now.
 
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Pan

Paragon
Oct 24, 2019
914
I can definately identify with that statement; ctb, I think, is an expression of total entrapment, of the gradual erosion of all options, except the choice of ctb as an act of free will.
 
BPDbitch

BPDbitch

Experienced
Nov 10, 2019
248
I think death will be similar to not existing before birth, or in a more tangible way like when I was under anaesthetic - like weightless darkness and no sense of it until I'd woken up. That being said I'm really scared of a 'do over'. This shite existence was bad enough one time around.
 
heheb27595

heheb27595

Member
Nov 20, 2019
94
My life was not a good one,
I consider it has over.
I will take my chance for another one.
 
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Lorntroubles

Lorntroubles

Photography by Haris Nukem.
Jan 19, 2020
3,095
No. The unknown and the anticipation for it is something else! Living a shitty life for it to be over and that's it is bittersweet. Idk how real karma is but if it is real, then I shall have a much more promising afterlife because I know my deeds were good and selfless despite being around negativity and bad circumstances left and right. I mean, in my physical body, you're telling me I have to suffer to the point I want to ctb but can't get a break when I die? I deserve that much! I'm lost, not evil!
 
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Member
Jan 6, 2020
65
I am sorry to here that and I suffer the same problem this keep me away from suicide. I just want to know what happened after I died.
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,322
Nah, not anymore. For me, it will be an eternal darkness. There's only one life. Tried to do my best but I failed. I had good moments anyway. But it's enough.
 

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