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Venting Anyone relate to this? Sometimes I want to CTB other times I'm not sure.

Yogobro298

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Oct 13, 2021
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I have SN thats 4 month expired been sitting my room for a while now. Planned on CTB back in 2021. In 2021 I lost my life savings and honestly things haven't became that much better. Chronic pain in various places in my body. Mental illness I need to deal with. Living with a borderline narcissistic mother/w a personality disorder. I ordered an Anti-emetic, beta-blockers.etc for a successful CTB. Hours later I slightly changed my mind because I do feel like I have options to get out of my situation. And it's constantly been like that through this year. And I feel like some how some way pulling myself out this situation would be a big fuck you to my mother as well. Anyone relate to this?(A Part of you want to CTB but then another part of you has slight doubts?
 
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