blueclover_.
Better Never to Have Been: 2006, David Benatar
- Oct 11, 2021
- 667
Part of my motivation to ctb is to gt revenge on my narc mother and abusive dad, and overall shit humans.
sadbadpsychogirl
sonofabitch
- May 29, 2020
- 725
yes people who actually care about the person can be devastated. well excuse my punctuation.. abusers or anyone the person wants revenge on, thrive on power. no i'm not a pro-lifer i just wanted to say that if someone is going to end their own life, it should be because THEY want to and not to try to hurt others. i don't know how much more clear i can possibly be. if you don't get it, you don't get it. you don't have to get upset or jump to ridiculous conclusions...
Shadowplay
Average life non-enjoyer
- Sep 11, 2021
- 853
If someone will be devastated then that sounds like potential for revenge.
I'm genuinely NOT trying to split hairs, but you're not being as clear as you think you are.
sadbadpsychogirl
sonofabitch
- May 29, 2020
- 725
blueclover_.
Better Never to Have Been: 2006, David Benatar
- Oct 11, 2021
- 667
I want revenge on my mother because she treats me badly 'out of love'. Yes people can love you and still hurt you.
sadbadpsychogirl
sonofabitch
- May 29, 2020
- 725
i'm sorry she treats you like that. maybe she really doesn't understand what you're going through. either way it sounds like she will be very upset by your death. just remember that you won't be here to see her suffer..
Shadowplay
Average life non-enjoyer
- Sep 11, 2021
- 853
>this
The road to hell is paved with good intentions, as they say. I'm sure there are a million more aprt quotes I'm not aware.
Dr Iron Arc
Into the Unknown
- Feb 10, 2020
- 21,401
I see it mostly as revenge against myself for being so stupid and incompetent to have led my life to this point.
When I was younger I used to fantasize about getting a gun and ctb in front of people as revenge making them finally see me
I'd like to CTB outside the house of one of the people who bullied me. She is a public figure and I hope it would make the press and shame her.
Pluto
Cat Extremist
- Dec 27, 2020
- 6,164
Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,156
Well, The situation she left me in is suicidal. I'm not sure she's even going to feel very bad when she finds out what happened. She seems to have a sociopathic Streak. She is from Minsk and would often refer to "toughness "… There was a bit of a transaction quality to her relationships. She had suffered all sorts of trauma growing up so for her life has been a matter of survival. She had been excepting help from men throughout her life as a stripper and an escort. So I think my unconditional love and support may have simply been lumped in with all these other men and how they helped her. All of this to say I don't think my "revenge quote will have much impact. At this point I'm so numb and apathetic I don't really care anyway.
broken_songbird
Member
- Aug 27, 2022
- 65
I wouldn't consider you evil, either. Maybe her. Definitely not you.
At any rate, the social services people have been abusive. Like, so abusive I told them to cancel my housing because their treatment was contributing to my suicidality. I was polite to them. I did everything they told me to do. I didn't start having emotional reactions until it was clear there was no help to be had.
I already plan to write DNR on my chest just in case, even though folks are trained to ignore that sort of thing. When I changed my date to 08/08, I flirted with the idea of writing something like: Courtesy of ** County Social Services -OR- Call ***** at (work number) to thank her. I changed my mind because I don't ever want anyone to know those dicks affected me that much.
I also considered writing my ex's name and number. For what he added to it, he deserves to have to clean up this mess. But I probably won't do that either, mostly because it's just not my nature.
I've been planning to ctb for awhile, but some heinous maltreatment from social services has been the recent catalyst. In June I decided to try for one more year to work hard on my life. If things didn't improve, I could still ctb. The day before my birthday because why turn 43 if this vane bitch doesn't have to?
At any rate, the social services people have been abusive. Like, so abusive I told them to cancel my housing because their treatment was contributing to my suicidality. I was polite to them. I did everything they told me to do. I didn't start having emotional reactions until it was clear there was no help to be had.
I already plan to write DNR on my chest just in case, even though folks are trained to ignore that sort of thing. When I changed my date to 08/08, I flirted with the idea of writing something like: Courtesy of ** County Social Services -OR- Call ***** at (work number) to thank her. I changed my mind because I don't ever want anyone to know those dicks affected me that much.
I also considered writing my ex's name and number. For what he added to it, he deserves to have to clean up this mess. But I probably won't do that either, mostly because it's just not my nature.
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theboy
Illuminated
- Jul 15, 2022
- 3,411
I once read that the CTB is an act of revenge towards society
In any case, I wish that the people who harmed me feel miserable guilt.
In any case, I wish that the people who harmed me feel miserable guilt.
