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SpiderLink

SpiderLink

they/them
Apr 3, 2023
362
Anyone just miss being a kid, when everything was so simple, nothing to worry about, looking forward to growing up, heard and just felt good, I miss that, I just don't remember what it felt like. I just know, I was at peace then. I wish I could say the same now
 
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urfavlatina

urfavlatina

New Member
Feb 21, 2023
3
When I was a young kid, around 5, I really didn't have an innocent childhood due to the fact that my mom would work 3 jobs and my dad when he was still living with us, would be on the Xbox all day with his friends or just cheating on my mom. So, I was exposed to some things while growing up, while having to take care of and be there for my younger siblings. I wish people themselves can be innocent and not have to be so tainted by the world and by others. But yes, I agree, I wish I can be innocent and not be tainted.
 
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flapjax

flapjax

Seeking peace
May 13, 2023
16
Being a kid was so peaceful for a time, it's so sad the reality we're left to grow into
 
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socrates

socrates

I know nothing except the fact of my ignorance.
Dec 3, 2019
304
When I was a young kid, around 5, I really didn't have an innocent childhood due to the fact that my mom would work 3 jobs and my dad when he was still living with us, would be on the Xbox all day with his friends or just cheating on my mom. So, I was exposed to some things while growing up, while having to take care of and be there for my younger siblings. I wish people themselves can be innocent and not have to be so tainted by the world and by others. But yes, I agree, I wish I can be innocent and not be tainted.
That's so horrible. I'm sorry you had to go through all that. An innocent untainted life would be ideal
 
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System28

Student
Oct 14, 2022
103
not the greatest childhood but i was happy, so yeh i miss alot that times
 
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SpiderLink

SpiderLink

they/them
Apr 3, 2023
362
not the greatest childhood but i was happy, so yeh i miss alot that times
The same for me, but it was a lot better then what I'm dealing with now
 
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System28

Student
Oct 14, 2022
103
The same for me, but it was a lot better then what I'm dealing with now
yeh things was simple, and a world of possibilities in my mind, now reality is a shit i cant even dream anymore
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
I wasn't even happy or innocent during my childhood either. Even during childhood I knew I wanted to be dead rather than alive
 
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AInilam

AInilam

Student
Dec 17, 2023
172
Yes, all the time. I didn't have the best childhood but it did have its moments. The world seemed so magical, I remember just getting high off of staring at lights all the time--I was looking up at this streetlight as rain was coming down and thought it was the most prettiest shit I've ever seen. Now I feel disillusioned and like a shell of my former self, if my younger self could see me now--or knew what I know now I'm sure she'd be very disappointed.
 
Catch-22

Catch-22

But in the end it doesn't even matter...😢
Aug 19, 2019
297
I don't remember any innocence. My first memories were of mental torture and sickness. I have some pictures of me smiling as a child but I don't recall ever being happy. I had a mother that was not emotionally available a father that hit me with a razor strop and a sister that mentally tortured me. Didn't have many friends due to being shy and introverted
 
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HollowDrop

HollowDrop

ah
Oct 4, 2023
153
Me and my brothers had some tough hardships and a violent father, but we had each other. I miss just doing anything and everything together with them. Now we all live apart and have our own lives with jobs and families. My brothers were my best friends, growing up can be lonely.
But I think what I miss the most about childhood is that I didn't have to feel different even if I am a girl. Once growing up started happening and my body developed more it came as a mental shock to me. I wasn't like my brothers and more and more it felt like I couldn't be with my brothers or male friends the same way I used to. I miss being a child, when none of this bullshit mattered. When I felt like I was one with my brothers.
 
leavingthesoultrap

leavingthesoultrap

(ᴗ_ ᴗ。)
Nov 25, 2023
1,212
No cause there was also emotional abuse.
 
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oddetoad

Arcanist
Nov 25, 2023
496
i really miss those times ye. everything felt so new and exciting but now every day feels like a living nightmare

i was still oblivious to the fact that this was a hellish experience

can't say i wanna go back though, i just wanna get as far away as possible from this existence
 
Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,326
I wasn't happy as a kid either. Time won't change my genetics.
 
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