Well, after many unfortunate events, I basically gave up on searching for someone. I personally had a rather oldschool way of finding someone.
I personally have a very negative opinion about dating apps such as Tinder.
And ever since I stopped dating, I basically also let myself go..
Like I showered sometimes two times per week, had mostly the same clothes on and my "bad thoughts" were really bad.
To make the story short,
when I got transported back to Germany, I was sent to psych ward and as ironically as it sounds, I meet there someone and now we're not only together but also live together.
To be fair, she's also not fully alright (Is very clingy, FaceTime's me every time I have my 30min break, etc.) but I don't mind that. At least it's nice to come back home after work and spend the rest of the evening with someone.
This really keeps me going and for over two weeks I didn't had any "bad thoughts" : P