Anyone here just want to ctb because of your characteristics and stupidity ?

[Bongda]

I live in a perfect family, they are rich and super nice to me. I got a dozens of good friends and a girl friend . I was happy when I was a kid till now . Recently I relize that I am so fucking stupid and some signs of ADHD Inattentive type. Nobody hurts me at all or I have no pressure at all but that kind of thinking killing me everyday. I research a lot about what i'm lack of and i found that my brain always daydream about some fucking shit and can not focus at all. In couple months i am entirely depressed that I sleep 14 hours a day and when I woke up I just search about method to suicide that painless and look like an accident. I did try my best to fix my weakness but that is impossible for sure. I feel so guilty to my family

 

[Terminally drunk]

you could try go to doctors and get a prescription for Ritalin. that might help. has helped my adhd mates in the past. your brain is a muscle and you need to regularly exercise it. even if its just video games or anything. have you talked to your family about the issues you've been dealing with?

 

[Bongda]

you could try go to doctors and get a prescription for Ritalin. that might help. has helped my adhd mates in the past. your brain is a muscle and you need to regularly exercise it. even if its just video games or anything. have you talked to your family about the issues you've been dealing with?

I did go to doctor and did all their precription for sure . But after all even everytthing got worse

 

[Terminally drunk]

thats unfortunate. at the end of the day its your life. if you think your intelligence and not being able to concentrate is means too destroy yourself then its your choice. but always search other options too try make the best of what you have left. least you got rich parents. thats always a bonus.

 

[Severen]

I live in a perfect family, they are rich and super nice to me. I got a dozens of good friends and a girl friend . I was happy when I was a kid till now . Recently I relize that I am so fucking stupid and some signs of ADHD Inattentive type. Nobody hurts me at all or I have no pressure at all but that kind of thinking killing me everyday. I research a lot about what i'm lack of and i found that my brain always daydream about some fucking shit and can not focus at all. In couple months i am entirely depressed that I sleep 14 hours a day and when I woke up I just search about method to suicide that painless and look like an accident. I did try my best to fix my weakness but that is impossible for sure. I feel so guilty to my family

You didn't choose to be born as a stupid person. Why beat yourself up over this? A fucking cockroach didn't choose to be born as a cockroach. Such things have nothing to do with you. It's just fate. Besides, everyone has their strengths and weaknesses. You are focusing on your weaknesses only. Focus on your strengths... EVERYONE has some strengths... If you don't know your strengths, discover them. And learn to love yourself because of those strengths. A stupid person can still do much for his or her family, as well simply by being someone who is loyal and supportive towards his family. Besides, you might not be stupid but someone who just needs some fucking Adderall and anti depressants. Day dreaming all the time is not a sign of stupidity. It could mean, you are unable to focus or you are constantly being put in situations that are extremely boring to you. Maybe you find your life too fucking boring so you day dream, all the time and can't focus... Every time, I was forced to be in an extremely boring situation, I checked out, mentally. Why would I want to focus on extremely boring shit? Life is too short for that shit. EDIT: And most people are fucking idiots until their brains are fully developed which takes time. Your brain is not fully developed until you are 25. Before I was 25, I was really dumb, constantly making bad decisions etc... Not really operating on logic... Not really thinking before doing something... I was impulsive etc... I was like a wild insane monkey. And also, evolution has made sure, everyone at least, has one strength... It's also illogical to focus on your weaknesses if there is nothing you can do about them... The whole point of focusing on your weaknesses is so you can purge them from your life so your quality of life will improve... But if you cant do shit about them, then there is no point. Because you gain nothing beneficial from doing so. It's illogical to wage psychological warfare against yourself with NOTHING to gain except misery.

 

[Going Home]

I live in a perfect family, they are rich and super nice to me. I got a dozens of good friends and a girl friend . I was happy when I was a kid till now . Recently I relize that I am so fucking stupid and some signs of ADHD Inattentive type. Nobody hurts me at all or I have no pressure at all but that kind of thinking killing me everyday. I research a lot about what i'm lack of and i found that my brain always daydream about some fucking shit and can not focus at all. In couple months i am entirely depressed that I sleep 14 hours a day and when I woke up I just search about method to suicide that painless and look like an accident. I did try my best to fix my weakness but that is impossible for sure. I feel so guilty to my family

What do you mean you realized you are so fucking stupid??? What is it you realized?

I cant relate to having rich parents because I was born to a poor young parent, the only one I have. If you have a nice perfect family would they mind helping you instead of having you research on your own possibly creating confusion.

 

[HGL91]

I live in a perfect family, they are rich and super nice to me. I got a dozens of good friends and a girl friend . I was happy when I was a kid till now . Recently I relize that I am so fucking stupid and some signs of ADHD Inattentive type. Nobody hurts me at all or I have no pressure at all but that kind of thinking killing me everyday. I research a lot about what i'm lack of and i found that my brain always daydream about some fucking shit and can not focus at all. In couple months i am entirely depressed that I sleep 14 hours a day and when I woke up I just search about method to suicide that painless and look like an accident. I did try my best to fix my weakness but that is impossible for sure. I feel so guilty to my family

I know what you mean. I grew up with riches as well, and there's so much work and pressure to even get CLOSE to what they've built for themselves. It's like a daily reminder that you'll never amount to this on your own.

Though to be honest, I rather be bored than be stressed. I've been bored for the first time in years this past week as I've given up on life and I'm getting ready to CTB and it feels sooooo good to not have heart palpitations and panic attacks on a regular basis because I just don't give a crap anymore.

 

[not_a_robot]

No.
I want to CTB because of other peoples' characteristics and stupidity.
I'm comfortable with my own stupidity.

 

[Bongda]

What do you mean you realized you are so fucking stupid??? What is it you realized?

I cant relate to having rich parents because I was born to a poor young parent, the only one I have. If you have a nice perfect family would they mind helping you instead of having you research on your own possibly creating confusion.

I used to get bipolar due to the side effect of the past disease ( I don't want to mention the disease here because it doesn't play any role in choice of ctb). And bipolar is quite chronic so it came sometimes in my life ,anytime it come I discover my weakness due to extreme sadness. And at the last time I relize how fucking stupid I am. At the first sight I was happy because I know what wrong to fix , but After therapies and effort for half of the year I find out that it is part of my brain that I cant do nothing about it. It is mixture of low IQ and ADHD inantentive , I got deep depressed but I don't share with my family ( i'm quite good at hiding emotions) that is the reason they don't know what to help.

 

[Final Escape]

I live in a perfect family, they are rich and super nice to me. I got a dozens of good friends and a girl friend . I was happy when I was a kid till now . Recently I relize that I am so fucking stupid and some signs of ADHD Inattentive type. Nobody hurts me at all or I have no pressure at all but that kind of thinking killing me everyday. I research a lot about what i'm lack of and i found that my brain always daydream about some fucking shit and can not focus at all. In couple months i am entirely depressed that I sleep 14 hours a day and when I woke up I just search about method to suicide that painless and look like an accident. I did try my best to fix my weakness but that is impossible for sure. I feel so guilty to my family

Actually it's likely you have above average IQ if u have ADD/ADHD. Stimulant meds might help in the short term but they are dangerous too because very habit forming and u might need additional psych meds to deal with the side effects. I had the same type of problem and got on adderall but I feel like it hurt and helped me. The other stimulants were no different. They all deplete your natural brain chemicals eventually leaving u worse off. You could be dissociating and it's not ADD. It looks like ADD but depending on what events have shaped u. You say u had great childhood but I would still take the ACE test. Adverse childhood events test. Sometimes in infancy and toddlerhood parents could have been not tuned into u or dismissed your needs not on purpose. But by all accounts your childhood may have seemed great but from what u are saying maybe there was something not so great early on that caused this.

 

[Black_Knight]

Partially.
For the OP, you don't have to beat yourself up over the ADHD. That style of thinking goes against our society's general productivity-focused zeitgeist, and may irritate a lot of ambitious and focused people, but they are much more prejudiced than they are objectively correct. Hell, people like that get on my nerves and the nerves of many others, yet they walk around as if they don't. You can too. If anything it's a testament to your sweetness that you care this much. Already a positive trait that's evident and would be missed if you left.

It's your life and your decision, of course, but don't let the bastards delude you into thinking you're broken.

 

[Let'sgetoutofHERE]

I live in a perfect family, they are rich and super nice to me. I got a dozens of good friends and a girl friend . I was happy when I was a kid till now . Recently I relize that I am so fucking stupid and some signs of ADHD Inattentive type. Nobody hurts me at all or I have no pressure at all but that kind of thinking killing me everyday. I research a lot about what i'm lack of and i found that my brain always daydream about some fucking shit and can not focus at all. In couple months i am entirely depressed that I sleep 14 hours a day and when I woke up I just search about method to suicide that painless and look like an accident. I did try my best to fix my weakness but that is impossible for sure. I feel so guilty to my family

I can relate to you so much