In my religion, we believe that how your life is this life is based on what you did in your last life. Example, last life you were an evil person, this life you paying it back your bad deeds.
My baby died in Jan 2019 when he was 1.5 years old to terminal illness. Since the death of my son, I lost the will to live. EVERY.single.day is I bawl and cry, yes, I literally cry every day for the last 11 months since my son died. I'm planing my death, I want to have the same anniversary date of death as my son, so I will CTB in Jan 2020. Same month, same date that my baby died.
I must be a very evil person in my last life, therefore this life I suffer the pain of losing my own child, and I will plunge at least 1,500 feet to my death (yes, I need to reach terminal velocity to be sure). If my life ending is like this, I can't be a good person in my last life. Perhaps this is my ending, to pay back for my bad deeds in my last life.
I just hope once I took the plunge, it will be over. I don't want to wake up in coma, bedridden and forever lost all body movements and still be alive. I hope that is not what the higher being have in store for me. God, or whatever higher being please don't play me like this. Picture what physical consequences of your body you will be in if you plunge 1,500 feet and survive.
Does anyone here believe in reincarnation? Sometimes life is just so unfair you know, babies, toddlers, children who have to die, but then serial killers out there without getting caught, or bad people out there still having a good life.
There probably isn't anything on the other side, nor reincarnation, probably just like a lottery machine, chances, some win lottery some don't, some have bad life some don't, some lost a child some don't.