Venting Anyone feel that they never grew up?

[Scacie]

Anyone else feel that their body age somehow isnt compatible with the age they want to be? I barely remember my teens and childhood I just want to experience them. I'm 20 but I just feel that I'll be so much happier if I was physically 15 forever.

 

[wastingpotential]

i'm scared i'll forever be sixteen cause that's the final age/year of my life where things didn't completely explode on me & i felt i could still be salvaged.

sometimes i also feel nine watching my favourite cartoons and videos online, then it hurts me more to remember i'll never be that hopeful again either.

i'm beyond repair now in every shape and form

 

[Horrors Lazuli]

I'm 28 now but I never grew up, either. The state of my life is the evidence.

 

[Sarros]

A bunch of really small things changed about me, some I like, most I don't. But I don't think I'd wish to be younger or go back or anything. Just to die.

 

[divinemistress36]

Im 36 and never got to grow up never even moved out of my parents house

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Me. It's pathetic as all out.

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

yep

 

[thealteredmind]

yep I'm 31 but got stuck at... 15. maybe 18.

 

[lostmeaning]

Opposite for me. Grew up quickly didn't have a choice. Don't relate to other people my age doesn't match my life experience.

 

[Maravillosa]

Oh yes. I'm 57 but never permanently moved out of my parents' house (except for a year of undergrad in a dorm and two years of grad school in an off-campus apartment). Never married, never had kids, never had a serious romantic relationship. Emotionally, I feel like I'm permanently stuck in my early 20s and look like I am still in my 40s, but I walk like a little old lady.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I'm a 30 year old kissless virgin who's never been on a date, still lives with his mom, and is still fixated on many childish media franchises.

 

[abchia]

I definitely still feel a lot younger. People have told me that I a act immaturely and I sometimes take it as an insult. The past few years have been foggy and I can barely remember anything

 

[m1ll1pede]

Anyone else feel that their body age somehow isnt compatible with the age they want to be? I barely remember my teens and childhood I just want to experience them. I'm 20 but I just feel that I'll be so much happier if I was physically 15 forever.

I got diagnosed with childhood depression at age nine.. So yes.

 

[rokonie]

Yeah. I still feel 16-20. But it's not cos those years were the last "good" years- I was still really depressed, but that was the /only/ thing that took up my world in a way. Now I have to worry about functioning at work, job hunting once this contract's over, aging parents, actually being an adult..
I still snuggle in bed at night and doomscroll through depressing and triggering content on Tumblr trying to recapture those angsty teenage years because I don't want to face the reality that there's so much more i need to worry about other than wanting to die now.

 

[Aloneandinpain]

I think many "real" adults are still quite childlike very deep down. However, If you do have a relationship, marriage, career etc it gives a lot more confidence and definitely changes snd matures people, usually for the better,.

I will definitely still be a teenager for as long as I remain a virgin, even though I'm in my 40s now.

I have seen some people regress back into a slightly more immature state after their partner left, but ultimately they still had lots of memories and experiences so they're still far more mature than I will ever be.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Actually, I think I've grown up too much, and have had my eyes opened wide to the point now where I have nothing but pessimism, disdain, and contempt for this shit-ass world. This world will NEVER change for the better. Never.

 

[NoHalfMeasures]

In my 20s and I feel this. In many ways, I've "grown up", but I often feel like a child in other ways. The most difficult for me is socializing and making meaningful connections. I still feel very immature in that regard, like I'm still learning how to make friendships.
But that the biggest thing I can think of since I'm not sure my other reasons count as "not growing up". I would say my other things are just childlike, which isn't bad but I think it's relevant. Examples:
I'm scared of the dark, collect plushies, I like rather childish foods.
Part of me wants to experience childhood again and I sometimes have dreams of being a kid again, carefree with no worries.

 

[cracklingroses]

Anyone else feel that their body age somehow isnt compatible with the age they want to be? I barely remember my teens and childhood I just want to experience them. I'm 20 but I just feel that I'll be so much happier if I was physically 15 forever.

Trauma can often keep us repressed in age, mentally. I had a lot of trauma in my early childhood and adolescence and even though I am 23, I still feel like I am 14.

 

[Hollowman]

Yep I'm a man child.

 

[Archness]

Yea, Autism, constant initialization, not pushing myself to grow, lacking many experiences normal adults have at this stage, & being depressed & not caring / having disinterest in everything, are all contributing factors.

Ever since... God, elementary even, it felt like every day & every year was just repeating with just superficial changes overtime. Since graduating, everything kinda got frozen, and my life has reached a new level of stagnation.

Just like back then, I can find myself just kicking back and taking in everything how it is. The main difference is my intellect and some improved capability, and being an adult.

I just.... Already entered the prologue of life. I'm just transferring to a different loop on the tracks, and that's that. It's already done, and in the end there was no where for me to go or grow, there doesn't even seem to be a proper place for me in this world. Even with a few of these "Adult Years" under my belt, I don't feel that different, I still really have a child's lifestyle except as a NEET adult.

I'm probably never gonna have sex even.

 

[ilovemydog]

Anyone else feel that their body age somehow isnt compatible with the age they want to be? I barely remember my teens and childhood I just want to experience them. I'm 20 but I just feel that I'll be so much happier if I was physically 15 forever.

I think we're perpetually stuck in the age we had our first trauma, if that makes sense

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Yeah, I'm 19 and I feel like I'm 15. The thing about me though is that I don't want to grow up. I had a shitty childhood but I'll take my childhood back to avoid having to deal with adulthood. I don't want to be forced to deal with responsibilities and work. It's absolutely unfair that I have to and just goes to show that life isn't meant for me. I don't understand how society are incapable of understanding this. There are psychologists out there being confused as to why neets are neets and I think that the answer is obvious, the answer being that a life full of wage slavery is no life at all. I envy kids so much as they don't have to deal with many responsibilities and hardships. Kids are more free compared to adults but of course, at the end of the day, nobody who is alive is completely free

 

[Forever Sleep]

I've always been pretty immature I think. Especially I think in how others perceive me. For a few reasons I guess- shyness, an embarassing lack of confidence. I dress for comfort, not like any stereotyped girly girl or woman plus, I have a childish sense of wonder but- I like that about myself.

In any case though, adulthood just doesn't appeal. I think a lot of it is pretence anyway- people pretending to be more successful, richer, happier, more popular than they really are. I think a lot of people are scared children pretending to have a grip on things. At least we're honest about it!

But in terms of age, I never really identified or even went through what I would call typical teenage years. In some ways, I'm probably mentally even younger than that in some respects.