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TheQ22

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Aug 17, 2020
1,097
Mine today have been all over.

Woke up really miserable and worried about the future.

Went for a walk and felt rubbish but a bit better.

Been okay this afternoon for a long spell.

Now feel crap again. If I had N or SN or inert gas I'd be taking it now.

I can't understand why my moods are fluctuating so much over the course of a day even.
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,547
SAME HERE! Today my 24/7 chronic pain is on a scale of 0 to 10 a solid 8. I have been poping hydromorphone all morning. Need a job, yes I am 64 years young, but need somewhat for the money but helps keep me going and mind off other crap. Got 5, yes 5 turn downs so far today. The only bright spot has been ss and all the GREAT members here! LOVE each and everyone of you and thank you for being there!
 
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StateOfMind

Liberty or Death
Apr 30, 2020
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My moods fluctuate daily but always in the same pattern. Unless my routine is disrupted by a severe hangover.
 
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BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

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Aug 6, 2020
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Mine today have been all over.

Woke up really miserable and worried about the future.

Went for a walk and felt rubbish but a bit better.

Been okay this afternoon for a long spell.

Now feel crap again. If I had N or SN or inert gas I'd be taking it now.

I can't understand why my moods are fluctuating so much over the course of a day even.
Fluctuating moods: I completely understand you.

You've got a lot going on, and you're carrying a heavy burden.

You're thinking about quite a serious thing too, and so it's understandable.
 
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TheQ22

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Aug 17, 2020
1,097
Fluctuating moods: I completely understand you.

You've got a lot going on, and you're carrying a heavy burden.

You're thinking about quite a serious thing too, and so it's understandable.
This is true, it's not an easy thing to contemplate but I don't really see any other way. Maybe I should go to bed.
 
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BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

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Aug 6, 2020
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This is true, it's not an easy thing to contemplate but I don't really see any other way. Maybe I should go to bed.
Sleep does help. Have an early night :)
 
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_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
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also dealing with this. its hell + all the pain all over the body, i really dont know how people are supposed to live a happy life with this... sending you hugs :heart:
 
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Antigonish

Antigonish

Mage
Sep 19, 2020
593
This is my day off and I'm just dreading life. Its raining outside and I'm bored. And I need a bottle of wine. And just a few hrs ago I was cloud nine. It's to the point where I'm just so frustrated that I cant control how I feel, and would just love to kill my mind.
 
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TheQ22

Enlightened
Aug 17, 2020
1,097
I've had 2 beers and a small nip or two of whiskey, am now much calmer. However tomorrow I know I'll be depressed because of the alcohol. It has that effect on me.
 
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Antigonish

Antigonish

Mage
Sep 19, 2020
593
The alcohol keeps the cutting at bay. The cutting keeps the bad feelings away. I lose either way.
 
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nitroautnz

nitroautnz

Specialist
Sep 11, 2020
361
I have the same issue for few month after years of beeing under control, alcohol help but I dont want to rely on that, well start using weed, hopefully it will help.
 
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Antigonish

Antigonish

Mage
Sep 19, 2020
593
Good bit of the type of places I work drug test, I wouldn't mind but the world hates my situations.
 
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