Yes. It feels like I have a permanent headache whenever I'm not riding a buzz and even then... I have been going over TWO YEARS like this. It has felt like an entire decade! I feel it literally every single waking moment without rest except for when I self-medicate for a few hours. Such a crappy, shitty "life" that had promise early on but ultimately led nowhere. It's so extremely frustrating how close I got, too! It's like I almost made it but almost isn't good enough. I cannot endure this without substance abuse going on around the clock.
I've also been at the point where despite it being my only relief, I am getting tired of being buzzed every day.