Anyone else who wants to ctb because of ptsd?

[_Minsk]

It's one of my reasons

 

[hopelessgirl]

Yes

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

Yes. Complex PTSD due to years of traumas along with many other serious issues as well

 

[jimmy7754]

I definitely have PTSD!

 

[Tesha]

CPTSD sufferer here. I've always said it's going to be the flashbacks that end up killing me..

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

CPTSD sufferer here. I've always said it's going to be the flashbacks that end up killing me..

Flashbacks are a real hellish part of this problem. worse than death for me

 

[rationaltake]

I have DID. The whole back story of that is why I want to ctb.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Yes I think I have this

 

[sealbabies]

I feel like a lot fits under PTSD, but I like to think it's because I choose to go.
I just don't want to exist like this without the one person who mattered more than any trauma and abuse I ever encountered.

 

[Unheiress_unleashed]

Part of it, yeah. I have PTSD from child abuse and so I just kind of feel like I'm incompatible with adult life in a way. Everything is 75x more difficult for me than someone raised with decent parents, or at least sometimes it feels that way. I feel like I'm going to be either picking up pieces for the rest of my natural life, or else end it all sooner.

That said, I have no idea if that's all of it or not. I think no matter what I'd still be lazy, quick to anger, disorganized, and probably still be depressed, too. All of these were there before the abuse really took hold. But I can only speak from my perspective, so I have no idea if I'd still want to CTB if I had support growing up.

 

[Life interrupted]

Yes, as you said. It's one of my reasons

 

[Lullaby]

It's one of my reasons too. I'm really sensitive to my surroundings and disassociation has pretty much taken over my life, it's really frustrating.

Loud noises or even when people raise their voice make me feel like I'm a life or death situation. I've been in situations at work where a boss will give me constructive criticism and I suddenly take it personal and revert into a crying child.

I feel like such a mess who can't function because of what I've been put through.

 

[Squiddy]

Yes it's one of my reasons

 

[twilightfairy]

Yes. I have ptsd too

 

[alwaysSuffering]

Yes. I have CPTSD too from child abuse which then made me a magnet for psychopaths in adulthood. I have a long pattern of being victimized by felons, abusers, and 2 registered sex offenders. I can't live with what I've been through.

 

[I need peace]

It ain't my only reason but it's definitely in the bundle.

 

[Foresight]

Yes