Anyone else want to ctb because they're bored of life?

[sadgirl2002]

I will admit, I have many reasons of wanting to end my life including a main reason but this is one of the reasons. My life is unsatisfying. I'm just so bored of everything, each day is the same and most things seem like a chore. Even when I'm looking through this forum today, I feel so bored. I want more than this existence, I constantly wonder what death will be like. I feel like it would be a great adventure. I never feel content, I want more...

 

[a_strange_day]

Yes, but as far as I am concerned I wouldn't say I'm bored of life but rather that I've never been really interested in anything. I've never been passionate, whether by studies, a work, art, travel, people etc...It's like I've always been dead inside and I only do the thing I have to in order to live but nothing more. I've always been like that even as a kid, totally empty with no desire.
If people hadn't forced me to do things I think I would have just sat somewhere waiting for death. That's what I'm doing now.

 

[RealLostSoul]

Reporting in for duty. Nothing gives me a meaning anymore. Everything is shit. My daily routine is so monotonous and there is no end in sight. I can't conceive the amount of time I have to keep living. 60 years of suffrage ahead of me.

 

[Sweet emotion]

It's one of my reasons. I've physically ill so I can't do anything. I am bored out of my mind every day where I just want to drop dead. So pain , depression, and boredom.

 

[Lethe]

Yeah this is the main reason I think.

 

[Final Escape]

I'm not bored with life, it's more to do with my own thinking and bad mindset. I mean I certainly get bored but I feel like it's my own fault in my case. I don't have to be antisocial, or stuck at home. If I'm bored I do seem to be able to find ways to pass the time, but I'm also not that hard to entertain.

 

[seekingoblivion]

Yeah I'm pretty sodding bored.

 

[Astral316]

My boredom comes from my depression. I know socializing is a popular way to not be bored but being around people just depresses me. Doing things that used to entertain me while with other people depresses me. The only thing that doesn't depress or bore me is to hypnotize myself with a glow screen... a tv or computer. I know that this can't last for ever so I'm checking out sooner than later.

I agree planning for death is like planning an exotic adventure or vacation... if there's an afterlife, a chance to feel something... anything.

 

[suffering]

yes

 

[Cevapcici]

You can be bored periodically, but being bored of life, or too lazy to live - is just a sign of your brain and body giving up on life and symptom of a malignant major depression. See, our bodies have a maximal physical pain tolerance , and it simply shuts down ( dies) when our bodies begin to cross the limit. Same with our brain, being bored with life, lack of enthusiasm, lack of enjoyment to do anything, even things we previously enjoyed - is just a signal your brain sends you to signify you just don't have the minimal required quality of life to keep functioning ( whether it be due to genuine,justified life dissatisfaction or a depression)... At least that's my theory - because a lot of people have boring lives, but that doesn't make them bored OF life , or suicidal, they're absolutely okay with it , and content in their own mediocrity.

 

[OnlyMercy]

I have put my whole life on hold while waiting for my physical conditions to heal. I have attempted to live life regardless of these illnesses but unfortunately I could not enjoy much of the many moments due to the physical ailments and limitations. I am at point where I would rather not have any future "adventures" if they will be tainted with the marks of chronic disability.

 

[Divine Trinity]

Ego is the phenomenon that distinguishes an entity from its environment, alienation as described Marx is the extreme end of the ego. It makes me question if depression is truly a deficiency of ego, and not the contrary.

 

[vonvonwantpeace]

feel youu.

 

[hatelife]

yeah, but im hurting mentally also

 

[Misanthrope]

I have put my whole life on hold while waiting for my physical conditions to heal. I have attempted to live life regardless of these illnesses but unfortunately I could not enjoy much of the many moments due to the physical ailments and limitations. I am at point where I would rather not have any future "adventures" if they will be tainted with the marks of chronic disability.

I relate to this so much. It is hard not to be bored when you can't think enough to engage with anything either in the first place. Or are too sick to do anything meaningful that gets rid of the boredom. Then it all just feels like an infinity of time ahead that you are being smothered in. Like drowning in the tomorrows that have not happened yet but can't distract or shut down from. Whilst watching others enjoying themselves from the sidelines. This is not an existence I can find value in.

 

[TearyEyedQueen]

Well it's not my main reason but a consequence of that reason.
I just can't accept that my child self believed in a lie. I remember how it was to experience life as a 7 year old, all the magic and possibilities. There was no boredom or depression. For every boring class there was a fun playtime with friends after school. For every mean remark from the bullies there was a hopeful daydream of a better future.
But things fell apart, friends are gone, and the better future never came.
Now every day is exactly the same, and I can't even enjoy tv shows or books anymore because they keep reminding me of a life I can never have.
Life is just going from home to school/college, rinse and repeat ad infinitum. Instead of daydreaming about the future, I'm now daydreaming about the past, things I shoud've done differently. These thoughts never leave me, and one day they will be my doom.