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Time

Time

Looking to leave.
Nov 10, 2019
264
I don't know & it's beyond frustrating. I was originally going to do it asap & ctb before the holidays. Then a couple life changes occurred. Then I discovered SN along with the time it's taking to procure all the materials. Now it's looking like the best date will be between Thanksgiving & Christmas.

:hmph: Fucking. Life. :))
 
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Meant2Die

Meant2Die

Specialist
Nov 8, 2019
307
My dream would be to be able to get N and die after watching the NYC ball drop. You know that mind numbing scene of all those happy people, hugging cheering, kissing... loving their lives without a care in the world. Oh yea that would def put me over the edge.. lol.
 
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Daniela

Specialist
Feb 23, 2019
303
I should wait as well, not only because of Christmas but also because everybody has a birthday except my parents and myself.
But I'm scared about my SN getting found - like @trynacbt who ingested it the same week she picked it up at the post office
My brother will visit my parents over Christmas.
 
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V0latile

And God decreed, “Coronavirus spread forth!”
Sep 24, 2019
234
My dream would be to be able to get N and die after watching the NYC ball drop. You know that mind numbing scene of all those happy people, hugging cheering, kissing... loving their lives without a care in the world. Oh yea that would def put me over the edge.. lol.
They aren't actually happy. Did you know many of them wear diapers and just go to the bathroom in their pants? They're standing out there for hours and aren't going to move from their precious spot.
 
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AnxiouslyDepressed

AnxiouslyDepressed

Stuck- the guilt of leaving or the pain of staying
Nov 8, 2019
149
Aslong as my SI doesn't kick in hard, I have 8 days until my date
 
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lizinha

Student
Feb 6, 2019
144
I really hope to ctb before 2020. I honestly dont wanna enter a new decade with everything going on.
 
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Dazedandconfused32

Dazedandconfused32

She was the worlds biggest mistake
Jun 16, 2019
215
They aren't actually happy. Did you know many of them wear diapers and just go to the bathroom in their pants? They're standing out there for hours and aren't going to move from their precious spot.
This is very true sadly. It's definitely not worth it to me. Too cold and such a waste of time.
 
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mediocre

trapped here
Nov 9, 2019
1,442
2020 looks better on a gravestone.
True. But don't plan on having a gravestone. I don't want to have any proof that I was here on earth. Cremation so I can just disappear.
 
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blivogade

blivogade

Member
Nov 7, 2019
88
I'm waiting until after the new year so my dad will be in another country then and i wont give him the trouble of finding my body, will be sometime before June as i dont want to live through another birthday.
 
BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

The Arsonist
Apr 7, 2019
1,194
I will kill myself after 12th December 2019.
12th is my psych appointment, and 2 weeks before that Im going on short holiday to the seaside.
I dont care for New Years since Im a loner and wont have anyone to party with anyway. Even if I had friends, Im too anxious in crowds, I would just turn into a stump and sit motionless in my chair.
So I have reason not to do it till then.
And after that, Idgaf.
 
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LegaliseIt!

LegaliseIt!

Elementalist
Nov 29, 2019
808
I will be alone Dec. 26-31, but my SN isn't arriving until January 3rd, so I will likely be stuck here until Easter. I don't have to worry about ruining family time. They're all gone. My husband spends the holidays with his family.
 
angele

angele

gay trans man (he/him)
Nov 20, 2019
71
Yes but not much longer after the New Year :pfff: Hopefully that same night!!!
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,359
Yeah, getting Christmas and New Year out the way. I don't wanna cause any additional hurt to people around me and I don't want them to associate the holidays with my death.
 
Edward1

Edward1

Meh!
Sep 18, 2019
267
Exactly the same with me. Best to go on a date that is not associated with a particular historic event.
 
NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

Experienced
Nov 30, 2019
285
I admire all of you who are trying to survive until Christmas and New Years eve are over, I hope that you all will be able to keep holding on and in the best case finding your happiness to stay alive.
I can't, ctb is on my mind from the moment I wake up until I fall asleep. I keep dreaming about ctb and it makes me feel even more horrible, breathing hurts because I don't pass away naturally and I know that it's selfish but I can not hold on until January.
Honestly I can't wait for the SN to arrive
 
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dedalus1238900

dedalus1238900

Pharmacology Enthusist
Nov 28, 2019
45
I'm with the insignificant day plan. I don't want to be even more selfish and have Thanksgiving Christmas New Year a sad time because of my death. I depending on the next few weeks. I'm thinking January 22nd or 24th. They are statistically the worse days anyway. Holidays are over Valentines is shit. Or a meaningful day that defines everything I regret in life. Take a short vacation. Settle everything and this time make sure my method will be perfect. No spur of the moment attempt. everything planned.
 
Farmmaa

Farmmaa

Specialist
Dec 4, 2019
343
My family will be destroyed when I leave, so I would never think of also ruining Christmas for them for the rest of their lives.
I will wait until the holiday season is over.
I have so many things to get done first... and I'm still trying to find a sure fire method that I can afford.
My brother and niece were killed in January, so it already sucks for all of us.
 
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Marz

À PEU PRÈS
Aug 3, 2018
170
Me, I wanna do it two weeks into January. I also do not want to ruin the Holidays for my family. It'd be a hassle. The earlier the better so they can recover during the rest of the year.
 
gambardella

gambardella

De l'inconvénient d'être né
Dec 1, 2019
44
My SN and AE won't arrive before 3 weeks and I've already planned a short christmas trip with people from my uni, who I barely know. I'll take that as a challenge to socialize I guess.
Another option is that I could wait till my "significant other" returns from his trip in February but 1) that seems like a very unhealthy way to consider him and 2) I'm not sure I'll make it until then.

Yes but not much longer after the New Year :pfff: Hopefully that same night!!!

Way off topic but your username is exactly my name. I'm always confused whenever I see your posts haha.
 
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angele

angele

gay trans man (he/him)
Nov 20, 2019
71
My SN and AE won't arrive before 3 weeks and I've already planned a short christmas trip with people from my uni, who I barely know. I'll take that as a challenge to socialize I guess.
Another option is that I could wait till my "significant other" returns from his trip in February but 1) that seems like a very unhealthy way to consider him and 2) I'm not sure I'll make it until then.



Way off topic but your username is exactly my name. I'm always confused whenever I see your posts haha.
really????? omg i've never known anyone with this name.... nice to meet u hahaha
 
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Sad_Autistic_boy_101

Sad_Autistic_boy_101

When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
453
Not sure. Debating, either this Friday or early next year after christmas. I understand how you feel about the gym. I would go but I have no motivation and have lost the enjoyment out of everything