Anyone else sit here writing things out and deleting them?

[BornBrief]

I've sat here more than I'd like to admit typing up my feelings and deleting them while crying my life away. I want to be open but I just feel stupid in the end and feel incoherent and nothing feels like it matters in the end. This is the best I could do.

 

[Rayzieka]

From what I've seen this is a very open place and very accepting, I think you should take as long as you need to express yourself because even if it doesn't seem like it your feelings are important. I'd love to talk if you want to? I know it can be hard to get it out sometimes.

 

[Meditation guide]

I delete at least half the things I write. Don't feel bad about that. I understand wanting to be open but feeling as if you shouldn't.

 

[Life_and_Death]

Yes. I'll want to say something but I'm fairly confident most here hate me so whatever, I just delete it instead more often then not now.

 

[Fragile]

Yes, all the time.

I really feel terrible about the way I write, and my opinions and feelings are somewhat unpopular here. Might as well keep them to myself since no one cares anyway.

 

[Carrotcake]

I write replies sometimes and then my brain goes: "….. or we could just, you know, NOT say anything" and then delete it.


And when I do say something, I have many regrets.

 

[Less_Negative]

I feel the same way, I feel like I am just not capable of opening up and express myself, even when I try to - I just simply cannot find the appropriate words for the things I want to say.
I often stare at the screen writing and deleting stuff for half an hour or so, before deciding if the post I was going to make had any significance whatsoever. Even when I decide to post, I often deeply regret the things I wrote the next morning.

 

[Bat 17]

I don't tend to delete but I sometimes add things.

What I don't have is the emotional honesty and ability to encapsulate the suicidal thinking processes that some here display. I wish I did and I benefit enormously from what I read.

There are members posting above who say that people don't like them or their posts who I think are amazing human beings and wonderful writers. Hopefully their perception is mistaken, else there's no accounting for taste.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I've certainly done that a lot where I type up something big that ends up unfinished then it eventually gets deleted because I forgot to go back to it...

 

[LivingANDDying26]

I've been doing that continuously everywhere for the last 2 weeks... I just don't feel like my words add much value anywhere. Like why bother sharing? I don't feel much relief or anything worth it... I dunno...

 

[nightnightnitrite]

All the time:,) Scared of being judged even though this is a pretty non judgmental place. Sometimes I don't know what to say to others because the stuff they face and the reasons that brought them here are horrible and I can't even begin to imagine how to comfort them.

 

[ClairyFairy]

I always do it. I just think my stuff doesn't seem as bad or as worth other people's time

 

[Mentalmick]

Everyone should just let rip with whatever they're feeling. This is the last place you will be judged or mocked.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Everyone should just let rip with whatever they're feeling. This is the last place you will be judged or mocked.

Idk I got mocked for my tastes pretty hard quite recently and the post still lives in my head rent-free.

 

[aWishNotTrue]

I wish I could give myself the permission to spew whatever verbal garbage I come up with, no restrains, but that'll have to wait for the personal ctb thread.

 

[motel rooms]

Idk I got mocked for my tastes pretty hard quite recently and the post still lives in my head rent-free.

Did I do that?

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Did I do that?

...Maybe.

 

[DisillusionedDragon]

Yes

 

[WornOutLife]

Yes, it's happened to me a few times but now that I've realized that people here won't judge me and will just try to provide wise advice, I post whatever comes to my mind.

 

[Mentalmick]

Idk I got mocked for my tastes pretty hard quite recently and the post still lives in my head rent-free.

Just point me in their direction and then:

Then...

Finished with...

 

[Boochky]

Yes all the time. I can't form thoughts and everything is pointless.

 

[EraseRewind]

Yes, often. I write it then think, no one wants to hear that.

 

[FuneralCry]

I should do that more often. I think most of the things that I post only make sense to me and I post a lot of pointless complaining.

 

[Decidueye]

Yeah... Yeah. I've even deleted my response to this a few times.

 

[BornBrief]

Lots of love to you all

Its not even that I worry about being judged. Everyone here has been so open and accepting which is amazing.

I will just start writing, and then my brain derails and it all cascades from one thing to another and I end up in tears and 10 topics away from where I started. Then it just feels pointless and disjointed

 

[Sensei]

Just post anything that comes to mind. If we can't vent here, then where?

 

[Mentalmick]

It's not so much deleting I spend most of my time editing my posts because me speliing is so crap. For example, I started this post during the cold war.

 

[death137]

Yeah I do that.

If you made a post you can't delete it if its 6 hours old. I wish this restriction is lifted because there are lots of posts I want to delete because they feel stupid or pointless or too personal.

 

[Bat 17]

Yeah I do that.

If you made a post you can't delete it if its 6 hours old. I wish this restriction is lifted because there are lots of posts I want to delete because they feel stupid or pointless or too personal.

You can probably ask a mod for help if that happens. Cant hurt to try

 

[death137]

You can probably ask a mod for help if that happens. Cant hurt to try

I thought about that but I feel its difficult for them to check and delete every post I want to see removed. But I would try to ask them to delete the threads I regret posting. They aren't many so it won't be difficult. Thanks for your suggestion.