Anyone else prepared for a torturous end?

[ineed2die]

I am fully expecting to die in a painful manner. I've been unlucky my entire life and I just know that I will die in a slow painful manner. One of the main reasons I have not CTB yet is because i know I will make a mistake in my process and make my death long and painful.

In my heart of hearts I know that I will probably get hit by a bus and bleed out or just randomly get shot. Or maybe drown in a lake or something.

My death will be long, painful, brutal and fitting.

 

[waterrrrrrrrrbottel]

a painful death for me would be fitting i just don't think i could commit to it.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

Hell no! I'm a wimp when it comes to pain, and I will do everything in my power to make sure my death goes according to plan, so it should be painless.

 

[nomoredolor]

I am trying to plan a non painful death with SN which I've already ordered

But I have been absolutely prepared, well before this, for a painful death with suffering. I didn't mind slitting my wrists knowing that I had to continually reopen the vein once it started clotting. I have benzos + ocean as a backup method but I would rawdog the ocean if I had to. I would also go in freezing wintery pond or lake and willingly get trapped under the ice. Part of me relates thinking I'm unlucky. Another part of me believes I must deserve to suffer.

I hope your death surprises you in its swiftness,

Anna

 

[Forever Sleep]

Hopefully not excruciatingly painful but, I think it's maybe better to brace myself for pain if/ when the time comes.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

No, I'm scared of dying in a torturous way which is why I'd rather use SN instead. The average death seems so horrific to me and I don't want to be experiencing that at all

 

[Richard Langford]

Im not sure why you'd want to wish that upon yourself when there's methods that are seemingly pain free? My chosen is Opiates or equivalent which (If I can access them) should facilitate a pain free passing. Dont know muchbabout SN but pretty much similar. I just prefer opiates.