Anyone else panic when SN actually arrives?

[searchingforpeace]

I thought I would feel peace but instead I feel dread :( and I can't throw it out because I may not be able to get it again.

 

[stermc]

I am in the process of getting it and I am already freaking out

 

[MovingOn]

Mine has not arrived yet, I do hope it does arrive and is legit. I doubt I will feel dread. The "worst" would be that I would keep it deep in a closet somewhere without using it for a long time.

You should examine why you feel dread. If you don't want to CTB, that's completely fine. Then look for the things you do want to do. Me, personally, all I want is the goddamn option.

 

[SamTam33]

Dread? No. I dread waking up. I can't imagine dreading the thing that could keep me from waking up.

 

[freedomcalls]

having it does not commit you to anything.

Ensure it is labelled clearly as toxic in case anyone else ever comes cross it, and stash it away somewhere safe and hidden and then carry on with your life; knowing you've got an escape button in the corner

I wonder if it's really throwing up for you the fact that you'd prefer to life & don't want to consider going down this route - in which case, maybe it would help to brainstorm about what issues you are facing and see if you can get support with them?

 

[searchingforpeace]

I'm very conflicted about it and not thinking clearly. It has warning labels. I put it in the basement away from everything and I live alone.

 

[sufferingextremely]

I thought I would feel peace but instead I feel dread :( and I can't throw it out because I may not be able to get it again.

If you do throw it away, it has to go to a hazardous materials waste site. It is an extremely deadly poison and if it gets into the water supply it could possibly kill many many people. It is also an oxidizer (will cause things to combust at lower temperatures) and has the potential to explode. If this goes into a GDS container, something bad is going to happen.

I'm very conflicted about it and not thinking clearly. It has warning labels. I put it in the basement away from everything and I live alone.

I know about the warning labels too, and it had me kind of worried. I think the real concern comes after you open it. I'd read up on it.

 

[makethepainstop]

I thought I would feel peace but instead I feel dread :( and I can't throw it out because I may not be able to get it again.

Panic no! Ecstasy yes!