Anyone else not want to ctb when they’re hopelessly miserable?

[Kramer]

I know most suicides are done in that state, but it sounds awful.

 

[Good4Nothing]

That will be the state that will finally push me to do it.

 

[hoping to lose hope]

Well yes I do not know many people who have ironically killed themselves.

 

[Moon Flower]

I think I understand what you're saying, even if the big picture is a miserable one, it's best to end on a high note or a good day, right?
I'm sure for people who are mostly doing so to die on their own terms would probably choose that, but a lot of people ctb impulsively or when they're out of options so idk how realistic that is for everyone

 

[hoping to lose hope]

I am convinced that when we turn to stone it means we should have killed ourselves before that point when we were in such extreme emotions
that made them go numb

 

[inpursuitofpeace]

I originally read your post backwards, sorry. i'm editing it. I have thoughts of CTB almost everyday, but when I want to engage in them is when things are really miserable.

 

[Unending]

If possible, I'd prefer to have ctb feel like a good thing. I don't want to be leaving in agony if possible. Even despite my debilitations, there are moments where I visualize having n and having it be a peaceful and reassuring thing.

I'm not sure if I could really achieve leaving on a good note, definitely not anytime soon, but it's something I hope for whenever that time may come.