tiredofbreathing
Member
- Jan 3, 2023
- 82
I had opportunities to recover over the past years that the universe gave me many options but didn't take advantage of them even tho I was suffering a lot. I guess it was due to a combination of me being younger, thinking I'm partly invincible, thinking I deserve suffering and pain, stupid, suffering abuse, not seeing into the future etc. i wasn't in my right mind due to suffering for a while
About a year ago was the last time I had a full chance to recover and now it's to late. I may have to be forced to cbt now. I wish I could go back and understand the consequences but unfortunately the physical damage is done. I wish I had one more chance because I would make better decisions but I let many people and life push me in a corner in which I can't back out of now. I can't believe I caused myself so much suffering because I never deserved it but I didn't love myself enough
About a year ago was the last time I had a full chance to recover and now it's to late. I may have to be forced to cbt now. I wish I could go back and understand the consequences but unfortunately the physical damage is done. I wish I had one more chance because I would make better decisions but I let many people and life push me in a corner in which I can't back out of now. I can't believe I caused myself so much suffering because I never deserved it but I didn't love myself enough
