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I often get looks of pity when conversing with people in public.
I never break down, but I've felt close. How are other people able to hide their pain so well?Yeah..... I even cry and break down in public and even in the middle of my work shifts. I can't even fake this shit. Cannot even PRETEND to be happy. People stop and approach me asking if I'm okay and in the middle of my tears, I say yes and am blatantly lying to their faces of course.
I'm blunt about everything and still people laugh like I'm telling dark jokes!I don't know why but everyone always thinks I'm happy, even when I'm constantly talking about death and I tell them I'm sad. It's not like I'm trying to hide the way I feel, at least not on purpose. I guess it just happens.
Yeah, I guess I do. When I was a pre-teen and into my teen years, my mom was constantly telling me to smile more and to hold my chin up higher. I have a habit of walking around with my chin down, although I don't do it because I'm sad necessarily. I do it because I'mI've had resting sad/anxious face ever since I was a child. Funnily, when I'm exhausted or ill people are always telling me I look better than usual 8]
Yeah, I guess I do. When I lived with my mom when I was a child, about pre-teen and into my teen years, my mom was constantly telling me to smile more and harping me to "Chin up!" I have a habit of walking with my chin down, but I don't do it because I'm sad necessarily, I do it because I'm mostly blind and I have to look down a lot to make sure I'm not about to fall down a flight of stairs or walk off a sidewalk. Now that I don't live with her, I don't know if I look sad still. My friends don't say that I do, but maybe they don't want to hurt my feelings. Sometimes I wonder if I ever really did look sad or if it was just another thing my mom found in me to criticize. Anyway, thanks for this thread, it is an interesting one.I often get looks of pity when conversing with people in public.
Sorry to post again, but I just thought of something. One time, about five years ago, my great-grandmother sent me a bunch of pictures of the family. Many of them had me included in them, from my very young years into my teens. Why she thought she needed to send a blind person pictures of the family is beyond me, but whatever. Anyway, when my partner looked at the pictures out of curiosity, he said to me "You look horribly sad in all of the pictures." I wasn't surprised, as my childhood sucked, but I couldn't believe that I didn't look happy in ANY of them. No one says I look sad now, though, so I must be doing something right, lol! Because in reality, I'm sad a good part of the time, I just maybe hide it better. Thanks again for the thread.Yeah, I guess I do. When I was a pre-teen and into my teen years, my mom was constantly telling me to smile more and to hold my chin up higher. I have a habit of walking around with my chin down, although I don't do it because I'm sad necessarily. I do it because I'm
Yeah, I guess I do. When I lived with my mom when I was a child, about pre-teen and into my teen years, my mom was constantly telling me to smile more and harping me to "Chin up!" I have a habit of walking with my chin down, but I don't do it because I'm sad necessarily, I do it because I'm mostly blind and I have to look down a lot to make sure I'm not about to fall down a flight of stairs or walk off a sidewalk. Now that I don't live with her, I don't know if I look sad still. My friends don't say that I do, but maybe they don't want to hurt my feelings. Sometimes I wonder if I ever really did look sad or if it was just another thing my mom found in me to criticize. Anyway, thanks for this thread, it is an interesting one.