Anyone else literally stopped caring about anything?

[iloverachel]

Everything in life just feels utterly pointless. I am not caring about anything at all and its been that way for years

I don't care how I look. I don't care about what I wear. Don't care about work. Don't care about having any hobbies. Don't care about my future. Don't care about anything really, because why bother what's the point?

All I want to do is lay down and die in a corner

 

[dragonofenvy]

Yes. It hit me really hard a few hours ago but it's always been a lingering feeling for me for the last decade or so. I just sit around and rot and I don't care about anything. I kind of hate myself for wasting so much time but what else am I going to do? Everyone else wastes their time at work and when they come home they waste their time on social media or watching TV or whatever else people do. I don't care about being "productive" for other people. I don't care that I never go outside. I don't care that I'm a friendless loser. I only shower and shave if I have to go outside travel to buy food. I just want to fall asleep and never wake up.

I think it happens because once you've suffered for so long your brain decides to cope for you by not caring about anything. In many ways it's kind of nice, but I wish I had something I cared about because then... I don't know. Maybe I wouldn't dread every day as much. Maybe I wouldn't lay in bed for 5 hours to mentally prepare for another day of doing absolutely nothing.

Life is really just completely pointless for some people. I'm not sure how others can find a purpose. I wish I was like them but don't think it'll happen. Oh well. Hopefully, in a few months, I won't be around for it to be a problem. Not caring about anything is in a way, freeing. It helps to not care because then it makes it easier to ctb once you're ready.

 

[divinemistress87]

I don't care about anything it makes my family annoyed. I just bed rot all day and doom scrolling. Everything feels pointless

 

[Z-A]

Literally same like you described. I guess wanting to die makes everything pointless. Had we wanted to live, wouldn't have been here in the first place.

 

[Done_With_It_All]

Yep, just passing the time while I wait for a good moment to CTB.

 

[lnlybnny]

Absolutely… whenever I think I should do something productive I automatically think "well I'm gonna ctb so what's the point??"

 

[Patches]

I don't care, and you know what? I don't care that I don't care. (My sad attempt at humour)

I was on a series of pills about a decade ago, it caused many problems and I haven't been the same since. I lost something that I never regained. I was more functional before the pills.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I never really cared about anything to begin with. I just want to be dead, I don't care about anything related to life

 

[underthedatetree]

yeah.

 

[NeedAnEscape]

Apathy is hitting me harder than ever this April. I feel ready to let go, and I struggle to see the point of 'putting in the effort.' Throughout my life, I have struggled with my physical appearances, particularly the expectations for what I 'should' look like versus what I actually want to do. The fundamental divide between society's expectation and my own motivation is growing vaster by the day.

 

[DeadKennedy]

absolutely. i dont have motivation to get better or ctb. i know very well that i will have to work to do either and i am not able to do either.

 

[Ociv]

Ive had this strange new feeling lately. Its not that I have stopped caring about anything, but that I have stopped caring about myself. Ive started being less nice to people, breaking more rules, doing all sorts of unhealthy things that I never would have done a year ago. Hell, I tried cigarettes for the first time this week. (they taste good but i dont really get the hype). not exactly sure whats causing it.

 

[heisenberg]

yeah, if i didn't have to work or go out i would sit inside in bed all day. i have no interests or hobbies and when i'm at work or in other social situations, i have to "remind myself" to look/act a certain way so it at least looks like i care.

 

[billie]

I don't care about anything

 

[Sageiois]

These past 3 days ive cared about nothing. I walked over an hour to a bar just for a few beers then back. When i get back home is when im going to CTB so caring about anything is utterly pointless