Ldog9

Ldog9

Student
Jan 12, 2019
144
I fear ctb and having a family member find me. Ya some cheap motel is a possibility, but I've already caused them so much unwarranted pain and disappointment that ctb seems almost cruel (also pretty cruel to some poor maid).

I wish I could just vanish, pretend to have moved out and away, that I'm finding myself, that I'm OK and happy, but to please not to come looking. Maybe the unknown is even more cruel, I dunno. I've fantasied about walking into a state forest and doing a partial deep in the wilderness (hopefully animals will remove any evidence), or even just drowning in the ocean far enough to not be washed back ashore.

Anyone else feel the same?
 
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TheRiverStyz

TheRiverStyz

Yes, that’s a typo.
Jan 16, 2019
100
Yep. I considered drowning and/or disappearing deep in the bush (I live in Australia) for this reason. I don't want to do it at home, I don't want to do it where a member of the public may find me, I don't want my boyfriend or his family members to have to identify my body. It'd be so much easier if I could just disappear.
 
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21Neberg

21Neberg

Enlightened
Dec 17, 2018
1,624
Another advantage of dissapearing without a trace is that your family can hold hope that you'll return alive one day, instead of knowing you're dead.
 
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RyanSuicide

RyanSuicide

Student
Jan 7, 2019
117
I fear ctb and having a family member find me. Ya some cheap motel is a possibility, but I've already caused them so much unwarranted pain and disappointment that ctb seems almost cruel (also pretty cruel to some poor maid).

I wish I could just vanish, pretend to have moved out and away, that I'm finding myself, that I'm OK and happy, but to please not to come looking. Maybe the unknown is even more cruel, I dunno. I've fantasied about walking into a state forest and doing a partial deep in the wilderness (hopefully animals will remove any evidence), or even just drowning in the ocean far enough to not be washed back ashore.

Anyone else feel the same?
I feel exactly the same. I want to do full hanging in a forest and have nobody find me. And there are plenty of forests nearby.......
 
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15dec

15dec

ember in the dark
Dec 7, 2018
1,550
Sometimes I wish I could just start a new life, forget everything from this one and just be someone else in a different country. Though that'd only remove a few of my problems, the depression would never go away even if I was a completely different, better person.

I've fantasied about walking into a state forest and doing a partial deep in the wilderness (hopefully animals will remove any evidence)
I've thought about this too. The idea appeals to me, I love being around nature and the idea of just vanishing into it one day sounds oddly peaceful. Sadly the woods near me is pretty small, not very dense and popular with dog walkers (sometimes with kids) so the chances of being seen and discovered is too high.
 
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TheRiverStyz

TheRiverStyz

Yes, that’s a typo.
Jan 16, 2019
100
Another advantage of dissapearing without a trace is that your family can hold hope that you'll return alive one day, instead of knowing you're dead.

I actually don't think this is a good thing. I'd rather give them closure than keep their hopes up. Plus depending on how much they care about you, they may waste time and money trying to look for you.
 
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Susannah

Susannah

Mage
Jul 2, 2018
530
I actually don't think this is a good thing. I'd rather give them closure than keep their hopes up. Plus depending on how much they care about you, they may waste time and money trying to look for you.
I agree. I think all families (friends) will be better off knowing you're dead. To find your body, have a funeral and maybe a grave.

But I definately would like to just run away and disappear.
 
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Sixfeetunder

Sixfeetunder

Specialist
Jan 12, 2019
319
I often wish I could just die and be forgotten.
 
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Taylored

I've figured it out
Sep 20, 2018
321
I've always wanted to disappear into the forests and emerge on the other side far away from people.
 
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Xerxes

Xerxes

Invisible
Nov 8, 2018
936
I wish I can just snap my fingers and suddenly I'm gone. No one would of ever heard of me, or known me. Like I disappeared like a fart in the wind.
 
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BlackDragonof1989

BlackDragonof1989

Mage
Jul 12, 2018
526
Sometimes I really do, but there for me at least is a lot of anger in wanting to become a thorn in the side of those who have hurt me with much gusto and pleasure, in their twisted beliefs that I am some cruel malicious person. They have their trauma and abuse but I did not coldly act as they do. If that's spiritual advancement then I don't know if I can handle it. My chakras must be blocked next lol. *poops out my crown chakra* Ah damn it happened again nighty.
 
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BlackDragonof1989

BlackDragonof1989

Mage
Jul 12, 2018
526
I wish I can just snap my fingers and suddenly I'm gone. No one would of ever heard of me, or known me. Like I disappeared like a fart in the wind.
Oh fart in the wind that made me lol. Thank you.

Edit ew I made a double post and can't be assed to fix it. Lol all the anal jokes. Now I have you tube poops in my head constantly when I am manic oh happy day.
 
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Hopeless_soul

Hopeless_soul

Soon
Jan 3, 2019
502
I feel that way in an abstract sense. As in "I wish I weren't born" way, which is a bit absurd.

Maybe the unknown is even more cruel, I dunno

I'd just like my nuclear family to know since it'd be cruel for them not to know what happened. But nothing more. Don't want other family members or ex-partners or ex-friends to know anything. Some people I've known love drama and feed themselves with others' misfortunes. Fuck them all.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Another advantage of dissapearing without a trace is that your family can hold hope that you'll return alive one day, instead of knowing you're dead.
This made me think lol! If there was a ctb service. That's listed as an option for ctb service. Would you like your death to look like a disappearance? Ok we can do that for you. Will cost 200 or whatever lol! Some reasonable price based on what needs to be done, complications of the individual case, and how much u can afford, maybe more than 200 but I was trying to just throw a price out.
 
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color_me_gone

color_me_gone

Sun is rising
Dec 27, 2018
970
False hope? No, that sucks, man. You will torture them for the rest of their lives. (unless that is what you want)
Closure is the best. The grieving process starts and then finishes, then they can get on with their lives.
Even if you disappear your corpse, at least leave a note that you are gone.
If necessary, you can let them know, in the note, how they hurt you, in clear detail.
That would be the best sweet revenge. They will know what happened, and why.
 
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ParamitePie

ParamitePie

Experienced
Oct 11, 2018
218
I wish people could forget me, but I feel like giving them false hope would be cruel. I want my family to have closure, because the sooner they can come to terms with what happened, the sooner they can move on.
 
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color_me_gone

color_me_gone

Sun is rising
Dec 27, 2018
970
a fart in the wind
LOL!
That was a song by Peter, Paul and Mary, wasn't it.
Oh wait, it was "Blowin' in the Wind" but probably only us old farts know of it.
 
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ForestLove

ForestLove

Jus wanna be a tree
Oct 16, 2018
236
I have nowhere or forest to disappear.
 
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creationisdeath

Specialist
Oct 20, 2018
359
Yep. I considered drowning and/or disappearing deep in the bush (I live in Australia) for this reason. I don't want to do it at home, I don't want to do it where a member of the public may find me, I don't want my boyfriend or his family members to have to identify my body. It'd be so much easier if I could just disappear.
Australia seems like the perfect place to die. Bonus 99% guarantee you won't be found.

I also don't want to be found. I don't even want to bother with a note. I have nobody anyway except government officials. And those don't really care. All "just a job".

Some days I want to make sure my so called parents know what they did though. But they wouldn't understand or care just as well so why bother.

Ideal death: falling asleep peacefully in the forest, then being eaten by bears.
Realistic: not sure. I can't leave the apartment much and traveling to bear country takes a while.
 
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ParamitePie

ParamitePie

Experienced
Oct 11, 2018
218
Australia seems like the perfect place to die. Bonus 99% guarantee you won't be found.
As an Australian, I can assure you that you'd need to drive about a dozen hours inland to reach a point where you won't be found. Our cities and suburbs are sprawling, the rural landscape which isn't farmland has been snatched up as typically well-maintained state/national parkland and there's country towns all over the place. Of course, once you get into the middle of nowhere, you can die near places like Eromanga, Queensland. In my opinion, that's worth it just for the dark comedy.
 
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Lifeisatrap

Arcanist
Oct 5, 2018
408
Yes, disappearing without a trace would be ideal. Even if I do manage to acheive death, i'm not comfortable with the idea of an autopsy or being found/mourned. But it's just as hopeless as wishing you were never born which I do wish all the time.
 
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Hopeless_soul

Hopeless_soul

Soon
Jan 3, 2019
502
Yes, disappearing without a trace would be ideal. Even if I do manage to acheive death, i'm not comfortable with the idea of an autopsy or being found/mourned. But it's just as hopeless as wishing you were never born which I do wish all the time.

I feel the same... Absurd thoughts I would call them...
 
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stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,919
I fear ctb and having a family member find me. Ya some cheap motel is a possibility, but I've already caused them so much unwarranted pain and disappointment that ctb seems almost cruel (also pretty cruel to some poor maid).

I wish I could just vanish, pretend to have moved out and away, that I'm finding myself, that I'm OK and happy, but to please not to come looking. Maybe the unknown is even more cruel, I dunno. I've fantasied about walking into a state forest and doing a partial deep in the wilderness (hopefully animals will remove any evidence), or even just drowning in the ocean far enough to not be washed back ashore.

Anyone else feel the same?
This is why I seriously wish alien abduction was a method. I really don't want to leave a carcass or have anyone find me or have to deal with my body.
 
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Kyrok

Kyrok

Paragon
Nov 6, 2018
970
Yes, but for the purpose of living.
 
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Asianfailure

Asianfailure

I need to die
Jan 19, 2019
7
Yes I wish I could just disappear into thin air or something, but that's not possible.
It'd be so much easier if I was never born in the first place. I can't believe what a horrible world I chose to incarnate into.
 
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creationisdeath

Specialist
Oct 20, 2018
359
As an Australian, I can assure you that you'd need to drive about a dozen hours inland to reach a point where you won't be found. Our cities and suburbs are sprawling, the rural landscape which isn't farmland has been snatched up as typically well-maintained state/national parkland and there's country towns all over the place. Of course, once you get into the middle of nowhere, you can die near places like Eromanga, Queensland. In my opinion, that's worth it just for the dark comedy.
That'd seem worth it. Although that's a long time for survival instinct to kick in. With all the crazy animals is there something that kills in an acceptable fashion? Instant loss of consciousness by spider in shoe?

New method for the joke thread: go box a kangaroo.
 
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ParamitePie

ParamitePie

Experienced
Oct 11, 2018
218
That'd seem worth it. Although that's a long time for survival instinct to kick in. With all the crazy animals is there something that kills in an acceptable fashion? Instant loss of consciousness by spider in shoe?

New method for the joke thread: go box a kangaroo.
If you're willing to traipse around the bush, looking for venomous animals, you're more likely to die from heatstroke. That isn't to say they don't exist. After all, even the Platypus is venomous, but they're pretty reclusive critters and most of our lethal snakes make warning bites before slithering off to get away from the moronic human that bothered them. As for spiders, you're more likely to end up acting as a sluice from both ends for the next few days and wishing all the more that you were dead.
 
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kels

Member
Jan 2, 2019
15
I've dreamed of being able to disappear without a trace for years. That is to say - CTB and never be found. My plan is to hike deep into the woods and hang. Hopefully my remains are not found.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Same. Oh wait, most people have forgotten me already.
No way, we love u here :) you're a sweet soul. Maybe in your everyday world that's how it feels though.
 
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