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mentalhealthfighter

mentalhealthfighter

Lets win together
Jun 15, 2021
362
Not much happened to me. I didnt go through any trauma. I mean, I went bald at 16 and was addicted to gaming but besides that not much happened. Yet I still became bipolar and had psychosis. So in the end its better for me to not pass on my genes and besides that maybe its better to die early.
 
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Apricity

Apricity

Wizard
Jul 27, 2021
642
I for sure do. Both of my parents had bpd, alcoholism, and heart disease. I'm pretty much screwed.
 
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mentalhealthfighter

mentalhealthfighter

Lets win together
Jun 15, 2021
362
I for sure do. Both of my parents had bpd, alcoholism, and heart disease. I'm pretty much screwed.
What does bpd mean to you? Do you have an addiction? Are you going to have to deal with heart disease too?
 
Apricity

Apricity

Wizard
Jul 27, 2021
642
What does bpd mean to you? Do you have an addiction? Are you going to have to deal with heart disease too?
Bpd - Bipolar Disorder. Idk for sure about my getting heart disease for sure, but my doc said my chances are way higher. I've had many addictions in my life. The worst was probably cocaine. I haven't used in over ten years and still want it.
 
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rosie93

rosie93

Student
Aug 28, 2021
152
Bpd - Bipolar Disorder. Idk for sure about my getting heart disease for sure, but my doc said my chances are way higher. I've had many addictions in my life. The worst was probably cocaine. I haven't used in over ten years and still want it.
Bpd is such a bitch. It triggers so many other mental problems and addictions.
 
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nerve

nerve

fat cringey shut-in
Jun 19, 2019
1,013
My father's side of the family is riddled with mental illness and addiction. Dad died in his mid-fifties after decades of hard drug use. The upside to this is that when I do the "death math" and try to estimate what age I might naturally die based on my family history, he definitely lowers the average a bit.

My maternal grandmother had a stroke and spent the last 15-ish years of her life in a nursing home completely nonverbal and unable to feed/wash/toilet herself. Seeing her like that and fearing a similar fate is part of why I'd like to die on my own terms. I just have this awful feeling I'm going to end up like her if I stick around long enough.

It's vain, but I honestly think more about the awful-shaped body I inherited from my mother. I saw the efforts she went to to hide herself with dark, loose, modest clothing and I just have to ask myself why she'd have a child knowing that there was a 50% chance of having a daughter and then another 50% of her ending up trapped in a horrible shell like this.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,789
Yeah, and environment.
 
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Deadlyroses

Deadlyroses

Sad Millennial
Mar 28, 2021
119
I have inattentive ADHD, major depression, and anxiety. I think I may be on the spectrum as well- I'm actually in the process of scheduling an Autism assessment. My dad has anxiety and my mom has ADHD. I suspect that my mom may be on the spectrum as well. I have a cousin who has confided in me about being depressed and suicidal. One of my aunts also confided in me about trying to die with rat poison when she was a teen. My sister is bulimic and depressed, and she's also been suicidal. Everyone suffers in silence for the most part. My family comes from a culture where mental health isn't really talked about.
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
I don't think so….. But my aunt on my dad's side seemed to be pretty evil, mean and crazy, and I've been told I was a spitting image of her….. Other than that, something went wrong there, cuz my parents are both very intelligent. And my mom is really beautiful. So I don't know why I am what I am. With their genetic pool I was supposed to turn out much better than I did :ahhha:
 
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Jumping_realms

★☆★ ☠️★☆★
Jul 4, 2021
483
I wish cancer or something fast progressing was in my gene pathway.
 
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siray

siray

the crucified
Dec 28, 2018
178
Not much happened to me. I didnt go through any trauma. I mean, I went bald at 16 and was addicted to gaming but besides that not much happened. Yet I still became bipolar and had psychosis. So in the end its better for me to not pass on my genes and besides that maybe its better to die early.
Baldness is my main reason for CTB, my father won't give me money for hair transplant, and I'm too depressed and suicidal to finish my education and try to get a job. Even if I did, it would take me 2 years to save up for the transplant.

Guess I'll CTB because no one understands my pain, I'll tell this to my dad's face, looking forward to his reaction.
 
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Amumu

Ctb - temporary solution for a permanent problem
Aug 29, 2020
2,623
Baldness is my main reason for CTB, my father won't give me money for hair transplant, and I'm too depressed and suicidal to finish my education and try to get a job. Even if I did, it would take me 2 years to save up for the transplant.

Guess I'll CTB because no one understands my pain, I'll tell this to my dad's face, looking forward to his reaction.
Can you afford minoxidil?
 
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MindFog

MindFog

:Professional Hypocrite:
Nov 19, 2020
733
Yeah I think it's in our blood, being neurodivergent that it. It could have been manageable if mental health facilities are better and cheaper.. Or at least they the knowledge to notice the signs. It took me 2 decades to notice AND I took a medical course at that. What more if you're a non educated person who's miminum wage. What chances do you even have?
 
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siray

siray

the crucified
Dec 28, 2018
178
Can you afford minoxidil?
I tried it for more than 2 years, didn't stop my hairfall. I also took fin for many years but it only made me more depressed and caused erectile dysfunction, it was fucked up. Guess I'm just the unlucky 1% who gets these side effects.

Hair transplant is the only thing that will make me want to keep on living, otherwise I'll CTB in 2-3 weeks if my father refuses me.
 
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