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Journeytoletgo
Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
- May 14, 2018
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I been in low mood for years on an off. However I'm noticing since 14 I kind of always masked that out in public I didn't have the setting or set to be myself. The bullying for my acne, my family attacking me and calling me ugly. All power play and abusers, I'm jealous of people that have healthy support systems and come from functional family dynamics. Who takes your weakness and abuses you while you're vulnerable. No wonder why I didn't like any of them at the time I really disliked my family. Finally when I got a job I was able to buy healthy foods but I messed up by not living on campus and following my other set of friends I feel by now I could be in a better place. I never felt grounded in myself it's why after that online abuser I abused alcohol isolated again and then led to fwb, sexual assault by a random guy. I been mindlessly scrolling YouTube for years and lost interest in life in general since him but during puberty not only acne but my physiological make up changed. I was aware of woman beauty and knew I didn't cut it and was miserable laid in bed rotting playing video games to escape, constant bullying and lack of self confidence.
I gave up on exercise
I gave up on exercise