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Rsuicidal
Student
- Dec 12, 2018
- 125
The sheer hell that is my emotions is wreaking me. I have zero confidence that therapy works at all for me, including specific ones.
I was so set on dying for weeks upon weeks and then back up for a little bit, and bam back down. I cant ride the rollercoaster forever.
My life isnt worth living up and down and back. I do not know who I am and my partner says it is like being a teenager. No I really do not know what I like or who I am. Looking in the mirror is weird when I dont recognize myself.
Sometimes I feel I am living in a dream and I cant shake it for the life of me. Sometimes the word is too bright and loud and I want to stay indoors with the lights off.
I am exhausted being this sort of ghost/ robot thing thatt cannot keep friends.
I have a family because of my partner but even they notice how weird I am
I am so sick of being me, and I dont even know who I am.
Im so so tired. Even if there us a hell I know I would deserve it based on my behavior.
I am a shit human
I was so set on dying for weeks upon weeks and then back up for a little bit, and bam back down. I cant ride the rollercoaster forever.
My life isnt worth living up and down and back. I do not know who I am and my partner says it is like being a teenager. No I really do not know what I like or who I am. Looking in the mirror is weird when I dont recognize myself.
Sometimes I feel I am living in a dream and I cant shake it for the life of me. Sometimes the word is too bright and loud and I want to stay indoors with the lights off.
I am exhausted being this sort of ghost/ robot thing thatt cannot keep friends.
I have a family because of my partner but even they notice how weird I am
I am so sick of being me, and I dont even know who I am.
Im so so tired. Even if there us a hell I know I would deserve it based on my behavior.
I am a shit human