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lonerclown666
Mage
- Dec 1, 2020
- 541
when i wake up i feel very sad because is other day living in this terrible existence another day in pain another wanted to never wake up
You are NOT weak ever period. Reading your post, it is so very clear just how kind and wonderful of a soul you are. I spent 29.5 years doing the same routine as you at work, yes it can be tedious at times, BUT there is where SS and this awesome group of kindred souls comes into play to brighten your days.Yes, for me its horrible because I know I am forced to live yet another day on this planet because I am to weak to overcome SI and ctb. It's horrible having to go through this life with so much pain inside, having to fake a smile and go to work, interact with people at work, have deadlines and responsibilities when I feel extremely depressed and empty. I honestly wake up wishing the day will go fast so I can sleep again and not feel anything.
What an amazing human being you are, Walter!You are NOT weak ever period. Reading your post, it is so very clear just how kind and wonderful of a soul you are. I spent 29.5 years doing the same routine as you at work, yes it can be tedious at times, BUT there is where SS and this awesome group of kindred souls comes into play to brighten your days.
Having no family nor friends, except everyone on SS, when I read posts like yours, it makes me reach out and say HI!! and tell you that you are cared about and so loved.
You are family to me, and I send you lots of well wishes, hugs and the knowledge that you truly make a difference each and every day!
Walter
Hello! I so understand where you are coming from as somedays for me it is a mountain to climb to get my move on. But I hop on here and feel the warmth of so many caring and loving souls that my day becomes better.always, i feel so heavy. my heart starts beating heavily. it's like the dread fills me up within minutes.
thanks walter :) best to you as wellHello! I so understand where you are coming from as somedays for me it is a mountain to climb to get my move on. But I hop on here and feel the warmth of so many caring and loving souls that my day becomes better.
I consider you a great friend to have in this thing called life and I care about you and want the best for you.
Sending you lots of well wishes, hugs and the knowledge that every morning when you open your eyes you are cared and loved as one faces a new day.
Walter
It takes me so incredibly long to get up and ready to start the day in the mornings. I've resorted to chugging energy drinks the second I wake up which gives me anxiety and makes my heart race, and even then I'm still somehow sluggish and morose for an hour or two. Also the mental time-calculating begins literally the second my head lifts from the pillow. 15 hrs 45 minutes to go until bedtime again!when i wake up i feel very sad because is other day living in this terrible existence another day in pain another wanted to never wake up