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Bill the Cat
- Oct 10, 2020
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My former psychiatrist of 18 years couldn't very well say this to me in the midst of our association, but in our last few appointments (after which I knew she had decided to close her practice, our final meeting being two days after her letter announcing the end of her private practice), she admitted to me that she believed I had been beaten down to the point where nothing which could possibly be tried might help me get better. It was a de facto endorsement of euthanasia.
Over six and a half years later, two treatments which had not yet been attempted have failed me completely, a near 40 treatment course of ECT (which she correctly predicted would not work) and the novel antidepressant vortioxetine (which did not arrive on the market until after my former psychiatrist decided to stop practicing medicine).
EEG neurofeedback and some other biofeedback modalities are not proven in cases like mine, and I have known some failures, people who did not respond to intensive and sustained biofeedback therapies. Allegedly, rTMS can succeed where ECT has failed, but these reports remain largely anecdotal, not yet supported by extensive clinical studies.
Also, the sheer duration of my Major Depressive Disorder makes it extremely treatment resistant. I have failed on ECT and seven of the eight classes of antidepressants. In the Netherlands or Belgium, I would instantly qualify for psychiatrist administered euthanasia, and in fact have been qualified by 2020 standards for over a decade now.
My current psychiatrist is an active Professor Emeritus at a prominent medical school which administered Deep Brain Stimulation, and he has ruled me out as a candidate for DBS for convincing reasons I have agreed with and accept. He has suggested the idea that an irreversible monoamine oxidase inhibitor might work, but he cannot guarantee success, let alone permanent success, while I would also have to permanently wear a Medic Alert bracelet, something I absolutely will never consider wearing, nor am I required to do so in the nations which practice psychiatrist administered euthanasia. Sometime in the next four years, psychiatrist administered euthanasia will become a legal right in the United States, but it's possible I will not be waiting that long before a certain specific event in my personal life causes me to take immediate action to CTB.
There's one "Hail Mary" desperation measure I would sign off on in an instant. Every clinically recorded case of attempted suicide involving somebody taking a massive dose of fluoxetine had all of them without exception dramatically IMPROVE! This includes one young female with OCD who attempted to CTB with a dose of 50,000 mg Prozac. Instead of dying, all traces of her OCD disappeared completely for over six months! I would LOVE to attempt something like this under medical supervision, but the health care industry is too cowardly and greedy to actually try helping anybody get better (meaning that in reality, they all support Sanctioned Suicide unconditionally. Talk is shit. All the actions of the mental health establishment completely support the public service which SS is performing on an international basis for mental health sufferers all around the world).
Over six and a half years later, two treatments which had not yet been attempted have failed me completely, a near 40 treatment course of ECT (which she correctly predicted would not work) and the novel antidepressant vortioxetine (which did not arrive on the market until after my former psychiatrist decided to stop practicing medicine).
EEG neurofeedback and some other biofeedback modalities are not proven in cases like mine, and I have known some failures, people who did not respond to intensive and sustained biofeedback therapies. Allegedly, rTMS can succeed where ECT has failed, but these reports remain largely anecdotal, not yet supported by extensive clinical studies.
Also, the sheer duration of my Major Depressive Disorder makes it extremely treatment resistant. I have failed on ECT and seven of the eight classes of antidepressants. In the Netherlands or Belgium, I would instantly qualify for psychiatrist administered euthanasia, and in fact have been qualified by 2020 standards for over a decade now.
My current psychiatrist is an active Professor Emeritus at a prominent medical school which administered Deep Brain Stimulation, and he has ruled me out as a candidate for DBS for convincing reasons I have agreed with and accept. He has suggested the idea that an irreversible monoamine oxidase inhibitor might work, but he cannot guarantee success, let alone permanent success, while I would also have to permanently wear a Medic Alert bracelet, something I absolutely will never consider wearing, nor am I required to do so in the nations which practice psychiatrist administered euthanasia. Sometime in the next four years, psychiatrist administered euthanasia will become a legal right in the United States, but it's possible I will not be waiting that long before a certain specific event in my personal life causes me to take immediate action to CTB.
There's one "Hail Mary" desperation measure I would sign off on in an instant. Every clinically recorded case of attempted suicide involving somebody taking a massive dose of fluoxetine had all of them without exception dramatically IMPROVE! This includes one young female with OCD who attempted to CTB with a dose of 50,000 mg Prozac. Instead of dying, all traces of her OCD disappeared completely for over six months! I would LOVE to attempt something like this under medical supervision, but the health care industry is too cowardly and greedy to actually try helping anybody get better (meaning that in reality, they all support Sanctioned Suicide unconditionally. Talk is shit. All the actions of the mental health establishment completely support the public service which SS is performing on an international basis for mental health sufferers all around the world).
