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Why the long face? Cause I don’t wanna live here.
- May 19, 2020
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Anxiety is another word for it but it's overused and has no meaning for me.
Anxiety is another word for it but it's overused and has no meaning for me.
Me too and it's awful.Always … other than maybe when I'm asleep.![]()
The sane and the insane rivalry???Anxiety is another word for it but it's overused and has no meaning for me.
Have you ever tried yoga?Yea, for me not being able to fully control my own body but also my own emotions like depression, existential dread, grief, etc., etc. has become one of my reasons why I want to ctb. Being constantly uncomfortable within your own body, emotionally unstable and added with uncontrollable obsessive thinking about suicide and death is NO way to live it's already bad enough we can't control what happens outside our bodies.
Yoga: No I can't bend my body much anymore with my tailbone/coccyx injury. Yoga requires a lot movement my stiff back can't take so I'm just going to stick with simple stretching.Have you ever tried yoga?
The breathing really helps and you can do it in public and no one is the wiser. Saved me and others many a panic attack.
Meditation? It helps but hard to keep your mind on track but phone apps have tons of guided ones for free.
Exercise helps tire my ass out which also helps. Hobbies working with your hands, drawing,coloring,puzzles and phone games help too.
I hope one of these will help :)
How does it relate to your comment?Yoga: No I can't bend my body much anymore with my tailbone/coccyx injury. Yoga requires a lot movement my stiff back can't take so I'm just going to stick with simple stretching.
Meditation: Big no with meditating cause quite frankly I see it a new age platitude people think will help everyone somehow and I just cannot understand how it helps people. My mind is too loud so to speak filled with depressing thoughts I can't control especially inner turmoil I don't feel comfortable confronting.
Exercise: A big hell NO, again because of my tailbone/coccyx injury that's made me basically bedridden and simply walking being a bitch for me. Just 2 days ago for example I simply went to the gas station and I had to take hydrocodone just to get back home and when I did I felt the worst flare up I've ever had ever since this shit started. I'm considering getting a treadmill at this point after going through that, but other than that not much exercise or any for that matter lol. And yet another bummer, I have no hobbies cause depression and anhedonia have ruined that for me as most things considered hobbies ultimately feel empty and sure as shit don't take up enough time of the day to fill up against the constant mundanity and drudgery of everyday life. It feels like I'm making excuses at this point, but hey what the fuck can I do about it. :/
Now thinking about it, how the hell does any of that relate to my original comment? Yoga, Meditation, Exercise, Hobbies aren't going to stop or control the constant 'uneasiness' or pain I feel every day. Apologies for being so hard headed, my problems have made it to where I'm like talking to a brick wall.
true.. words are tricky and sometimes totally meaning less to me as well..Anxiety is another word for it but it's overused and has no meaning for me.
Where do i start... i cannot stay still. From the minute i wake up i start to pace around. Literally in pajamas. I cannot listen to music because it either reminds me of something that happened in the past or i cant concentrate enough to actually listen to the end. So i just change the song after a few 10 seconds in. I lost any kind of consistency. Its gone. And i dont even have the energy to "slow down" or whatever. As contradictorily as it sounds