Anyone else dragging out their CTb? I just endlessly scroll this site looking at everything and fantasizing rather than actually doing anything and it makes it really difficult for me to be positive or take anything seriously. I don't know why I do this ... I really am tired of living, I don't enjoy it, I just endlessly prolong my own suffering. Like I want to die but I wish it were different but it won't be. So just let me end my suffering already. But for some reason my brain is like "but what if you're had done this different" . But I didn't do XYZ thing different in life and I never will have done it differently and now I don't want to continue because its like a video game that I already did too badly at to beat but instead of quitting I have to make an attempt to play to the end. :/
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nihilistic_dragon
Student
- Aug 6, 2024
- 183
It's natural to want to postpone.
I have a trip planned to try and get N, but it's like I am always looking for excuses to change the dates, to postpone it somehow. I think it's true what they say, that hope dies last lmao. It's some kind of a delusion really, not hope.
I have a trip planned to try and get N, but it's like I am always looking for excuses to change the dates, to postpone it somehow. I think it's true what they say, that hope dies last lmao. It's some kind of a delusion really, not hope.
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- Aug 18, 2024
- 20
Prolonging it is probably more common than doing it impulsively just because survival is hardwired in our brains.
Is prolonging it and having a ton of regrets and weird emotional mental reactions a sign of it being SI? It's so annoying...
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- Aug 18, 2024
- 20
Those are perfectly normal reactions. I'm personally having those because I'm super worried about my dog.
Defenestration
I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
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Danby
Just remember that the last laugh is on you
- Aug 13, 2024
- 25
Yes. I guess I still have hope things will get better, and I think what it will do to my daughters.
I keep thinking of how I'm throwing my life away. I have a lot of nostalgia and fond memories and people I would make very sad...I also think about my pets. There are things I enjoy about life and it hurts to know I have to give it up. But truly I am suffering lol I have messed up about as badly as one can. Not quite thar badly but you get the picture.
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- Aug 18, 2024
- 20
I totally understand where you're coming from. I'm in the exact same place. Just know you're not alone in your suffering. Make the decision that is best for you. I know that's really easy to say and I'm struggling with making that decision myself. My life circumstances are forcing my hand.
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