Discussion Anyone else attending therapy but considering suicide at the same time?

[myopybyproxy]

for the entire time I was in therapy, I was considering it at the very least. after I was forced into more intensive treatment post-failure, still wanted to die so went along and played their game. now I've given up on ever getting better - am in an eating disorder research therapy, so once the course ends (three more weeks) I'm out.

 

[its-about-time]

Yes. I found this website not even a week ago and ordered SN today. Happens to coincide with her being on vacation this week, so I have extra time to figure out what to and not to say. Always been 99.9% honest about suicide with her. She's seen me through numerous ward stays, an attempt, and some of my worse periods of time. This time I'm not telling her, though. Certainly not about the SN or anything I've learned here or that I'm even here. Focusing therapy on reflecting on my life up to this point. Some days she lets me just talk on and on.