Venting Anyone else always waste their ctb resources instead of actually going through with it?

[Lonerzepam]

I always get drgs (benz, opyes) with the intention to eventually ctb but I always use them till their gone and I'm left with absolutely nothing...it's just so frustrating and I feel like garbage and a coward everytime this happens. Anyone else struggling with this?

 

[Lost in a Dream]

If I had access to benzos, I would probably try them and do exactly what you did with them. Unfortunately (or fortunately?) I can't do that with SN. Small amounts aren't gonna get me high and will probably make me really sick or kill me anyway. So glad I can just save it until I'm ready to go all in.

 

[Lonerzepam]

If I had access to benzos, I would probably try them and do exactly what you did with them. Unfortunately (or fortunately?) I can't do that with SN. Small amounts aren't gonna get me high and will probably make me really sick or kill me anyway. So glad I can just save it until I'm ready to go all in.

Exactly for that reason I had SN too so I couldn't use it...but my brother found and took it...honestly I prefer SN over H OD cuz I'm gonna use it anyways till it's all gone...

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Exactly for that reason I had SN too so I couldn't use it...but my brother found and took it...honestly I prefer SN over H OD cuz I'm gonna use it anyways till it's all gone...

I'm sorry your brother took it. Would it be possible to get more and hide it a little better? I know that can be hard to avoid when family members think they have to check on you and look through your stuff all the time, but hopefully you can.

 

[Lonerzepam]

I'm sorry your brother took it. Would it be possible to get more and hide it a little better? I know that can be hard to avoid when family members think they have to check on you and look through your stuff all the time, but hopefully you can.

I don't know how to open a PO box sadly yes I know I'm a dumbass...but I've got access to hard drgs all the time so I atleast always have a plan B

 

[jodes2]

No, for better or worse you can't get high off SN, AE or argon lol. Wish u could tho

 

[Lonerzepam]

No, for better or worse you can't get high off SN, AE or argon lol. Wish u could tho

I think it's for the better there are lots of other drugs on this planet which makes u high. What's AE and argon?

 

[Lost in a Dream]

No, for better or worse you can't get high off SN, AE or argon lol. Wish u could tho

Same here. Then I could OD on purpose and fuck off out of here while having a good time.

 

[Lonerzepam]

Same here. Then I could OD on purpose and fuck off out of here while having a good time.

Have you considered a other method?

Same here. Then I could OD on purpose and fuck off out of here while having a good time.

Which actually does that

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Have you considered a other method?

Which actually does that

I've thought about it, but I'm not sure I want to go through the trouble of trying to get those things. I already have SN and it got here surprisingly fast, but I wonder if smoking weed before using the SN (but after mixing the drinks) would help to calm my nerves. It might make the experience go more smoothly for me.

 

[Lonerzepam]

I've thought about it, but I'm not sure I want to go through the trouble of trying to get those things. I already have SN and it got here surprisingly fast, but I wonder if smoking weed before using the SN (but after mixing the drinks) would help to calm my nerves. It might make the experience go more smoothly for me.

Weed will probably also prevent vomiting

 

[downndone2]

I don't know how to open a PO box sadly yes I know I'm a dumbass...but I've got access to hard drgs all the time so I atleast always have a plan B

I need F so bad, that's my preferred but hard to get without getting caught

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Weed will probably also prevent vomiting

It would be cool if it did help with that. I've heard it works for cancer patients when they're on chemo, so maybe it would work for this.