Anyone else act this way?

[BecomingTired]

Planning on CTB'ing on October 1st-3rd, which made me feel like I want to just ramble and vent about my life to someone to get a bit of peace; but because of how I faked my personality and all irl while not really trusting people for all my life, I struggle to actually say anything meaningful and just fake enthusiasm/happiness even online, eventually just completely giving up trying to say anything or just outright not even saying anything close to what I wanted to vent about.

I kind of just noticed that I had this habit for a long time and wanna see if anyone relates ig

 

[enduringwinter]

Planning on CTB'ing on October 1st-3rd, which made me feel like I want to just ramble and vent about my life to someone to get a bit of peace; but because of how I faked my personality and all irl while not really trusting people for all my life, I struggle to actually say anything meaningful and just fake enthusiasm/happiness even online, eventually just completely giving up trying to say anything or just outright not even saying anything close to what I wanted to vent about.

I kind of just noticed that I had this habit for a long time and wanna see if anyone relates ig

Yeah I'm just so tired of trying to get myself across and also instinctively mask parts of my story even when I'm venting. It's all useless. No one can follow wtf is going on also no one cares

 

[Qevyn]

Planning on CTB'ing on October 1st-3rd, which made me feel like I want to just ramble and vent about my life to someone to get a bit of peace; but because of how I faked my personality and all irl while not really trusting people for all my life, I struggle to actually say anything meaningful and just fake enthusiasm/happiness even online, eventually just completely giving up trying to say anything or just outright not even saying anything close to what I wanted to vent about.

I kind of just noticed that I had this habit for a long time and wanna see if anyone relates ig

I hate it when people ask me what I like to do, how I'm feeling or anything beyond surface level conversation stuff. Like "What do you like doing?", or, "Do you have any hobbies?" I can't just say, "Other than eating too much, I don't really enjoy ANYTHING. And I don't really like THAT!" But, I can't just SAY that to them or that get all "OH, I'm sorry. Do you want to talk?" "Do you need help?' etc. No, just go away & leave me alone. *sigh*