I'm surprised anybody could resist those apples.
I think every first time is going to be awkward. I think sex is more about giving yourself to desire and letting go your inhibitions, which would be difficult if it wasn't for literal chemicals in our brain pushing us.
Then again, i'm a virgin, so take what I say with a gigaton of salt
When I lost my virginity it ended with us both crying and never speaking to each other again. We were too young, rushed things, didn't have the trust and connection that was needed and didn't have the knowledge about our bodies, nor the communication skills to talk things through. I'd much rather have waited, no matter how long it took than have had the traumatic experience that I did.
I've been single now for almost a decade and haven't had sex since my ex, and honestly, I barely notice. The lack of companionship, support and someone I trust completely is far more hurtful.