Anyone doing this for health reasons or chronic pain?

[issyishere]

A year ago I was at the peak of my life, going to the gym, became fairly muscular, had a gf and a job, and over the course of the summer I began having digestive issues, lost my job and my gf. Lost 50lbs before I was diagnosed with celiac and crohns and i'm chronically in pain. I can't do anything about it and my quality of life is so low. Anyone else doing it for health reasons/chronic pain?

 

[MeltingHeart]

A year ago I was at the peak of my life, going to the gym, became fairly muscular, had a gf and a job, and over the course of the summer I began having digestive issues, lost my job and my gf. Lost 50lbs before I was diagnosed with celiac and crohns and i'm chronically in pain. I can't do anything about it and my quality of life is so low. Anyone else doing it for health reasons/chronic pain?

with celiac you just need to be gluten free no? is there no way to alleviate & manage crohns? im sorry, it must be awful, i only had ibs and that was bad enough- i cant imagine. digestive things are awful. Would you consider/ try acupuncture? I was skeptical at first - but the results i got-years ago, where life changing at the time.

 

[issyishere]

with celiac you just need to be gluten free no? is there no way to alleviate & manage crohns? im sorry, it must be awful, i only had ibs and that was bad enough- i cant imagine. digestive things are awful. Would you consider/ try acupuncture? I was skeptical at first - but the results i got-years ago, where life changing at the time.

The smallest amount of contamination puts me under for days, and crohns has flair ups that last months with pain. Some meds can help but the pain is usually there. I can't eat out or go out cause my stomach hurts all the time. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. ): i only see one way out

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Yup. Fibromyalgia and neuropathy issues. Terrible pain. Nothing works. Swelling in feet and hands. All kinds of stuff. Hugs x

 

[Dystopia]

I'm also mainly here for chronic health issues; a lot of what you said is really relatable. The constant ups and downs has really messed me up over the 4 years of having neuropathic pain in my abdomen and a chronic tension headache for 6.

It's very frustrating not knowing if they'll ever get better and I've slowly lost hope from being thrown so many medications that have caused other permanent problems. It's like Doctors here are completely overlooking what I've been saying about the side effects of medication..

Ive also found the toll it takes on your mental health can directly correlate with how bad some pain conditions can be. If you can stabilise your mood and start getting good quality sleep it can sometimes do wonders.

It's also worth looking into alternative options like acupuncture/herbal medicine. Pro biotics and gut health in general can also help out.

Sorry this has happened to you and other users; at least we're all in a similar boat and not alone. I find comfort in having the option to permanently stop the suffering but trying everything you can to help your situation is worth a go before making a decision. Either way I respect your decision regardless of what you decide

 

[Sweet emotion]

Yes, I have Complex regional pain syndrome which is the highest ranking pain condition in medical history. If people don't believe me look up the McGill pain scale. I've had it since I was 20 and I'm 34 now so the best years of my life have been stolen from me. Everything has been stolen from me. Along with the depression and isolation and anxiety this physical pain has caused me I never insgined a condition could be this painful and I've been through a lot of physical pain in my short life. I've been secluded in my house for 14 years unable to have company. The only two plsces I go are to the hospital or docs office.

 

[CrushedHopes]

I'm so sorry to hear that you're in so much pain. Have you looked at our resources and decided on a CTB method yet?

As for me, I'm doing this because I threw away my entire future. Had it coming all along, with all my years of atrocities coming back to bite me. And it's hilarious that people are only honest about how they feel about it *now* that I've been flushed out. Bunch of whiny, closeted, socially impaired asshats. Very few of them ever had the guts to tell me to my face on what I did wrong. Now they're telling me to "get help"? Okay.

I've been an asshat for the last 7 years. I would need another 7 years to "regain" everyone's trust, which basically means dissociating with that same community for that period of time, at the very least (late 2026). That is absolutely ridiculous. Why is it that people always tell others to "get help" *after* they've managed to flush them out? No matter how much effort you put in to "better" yourself, you'll never, ever regain the trust of those you've wronged (unless they're minor mistakes). Those people are full of shit. They don't wish me well. They couldn't care less! You know what would be even better? If I CTBed for real (which I will). And when that happens and my parents post my story online, I hope they'll celebrate with champagne.

I know I am cancer in human form plaguing this earth. All I do is waste resources and waste everyone's time. And to think I had the audacity to accuse people of the same things *before*. What a hypocrite I was. All this faux-elitism I held up for the last couple of years, and for what? Just to feel a bit better about myself? Wow, what an absolute tool I was.

Also, editing on Wikipedia was my passion as well, and now I've lost that too. People managed to link my Twitter meltdowns and sent them over to the Wiki topdogs, and now I can't even edit on Wikipedia because they gave me the boot too. Can't say I didn't have it coming.

My grandma, who never had an education past elementary school, used to tell me that I should be a nice and compassionate person, and to treat others how you would like to be treated. As I grew older and older, I told her that I would not take advice from someone that couldn't even go to middle school. I also told her that as long as I am competent and skilled, people would have to accept that I'm the real deal, regardless of how apathetic I am to others. You all know how well that turned out.

I only have a week or so left. As soon as all the materials arrive, I'm going. This is my punishment for being such a cruel, unkind bastard for so many years. You don't need to have broken any laws to receive capital punishment. I'd say that taking matters into my own hands and putting an end to my own sorry existence is taking responsibility.

 

[truthseeker]

Absolutely. My health has been in decline for many years due to disease with no chance of improvement. This year to date has been an all-time low and I'm so tired.
If it were just the deep depressions that I've suffered through my life, I feel like I could somehow muddle through. I have all of these years. Checking myself into psychiatric centers out of desperation on a few occasions when my body wasn't wracked with chronic illness. The inevitable was that my deteriorating health would eventually catch up to and surpass that depression so that now I am faced with fighting a two-headed dragon that grows bigger and more ferocious. I only have one card left to play.

 

[lymbo]

yes. cronyc low back payn

 

[MeltingHeart]

A year ago I was at the peak of my life, going to the gym, became fairly muscular, had a gf and a job, and over the course of the summer I began having digestive issues, lost my job and my gf. Lost 50lbs before I was diagnosed with celiac and crohns and i'm chronically in pain. I can't do anything about it and my quality of life is so low. Anyone else doing it for health reasons/chronic pain?

Acupuncture Helps Crohn’s Disease Patients

Acupuncture and moxibustion alleviate Crohn's disease.

www.healthcmi.com

something to consider? there are multiple respected medical reports and papers on it alleviating symptoms. its not just pseudoscience- it has been proven to be beneficial in research.

Yes, I have Complex regional pain syndrome which is the highest ranking pain condition in medical history. If people don't believe me look up the McGill pain scale. I've had it since I was 20 and I'm 34 now so the best years of my life have been stolen from me. Everything has been stolen from me. Along with the depression and isolation and anxiety this physical pain has caused me I never insgined a condition could be this painful and I've been through a lot of physical pain in my short life. I've been secluded in my house for 14 years unable to have company. The only two plsces I go are to the hospital or docs office.

acupunture has also been shown to alleviate symptoms of CRPS also-just a thought. Different things- but when I had very bad ibs, with an eating disorder, panic atttacks & severe anxiety- it really helped (at the time). I didnt continue it as I felt a little better/ money also...I wish I had kept it up.

 

[schopenh]

Broke out into chronic severe neuropathic pain over 1.5 years ago following trauma. It's a plexopathy, so it spreads from various nerve roots in my back down both legs (left > right). I also have fasciculations and my left foot is generally warmer than my right. But it's the constant pain that makes 99% of the suffering. All medical tests point to no further intervention advisable and the pharmaceuticals aren't helping to manage it. Pain management in general is a racket. It doesn't appear likely to improve and resolve. I plan to go with SN in Feb. I have all the materials already, so I might end up going early.
Please no medical advise, I'm tired of hearing it, Ive heard it all.

Much like yourself, OP, I had a fantastic life prior to this. I was about to finish a PhD and move to a different country to be with a person I loved and cared for a lot. In all honesty, I could adapt to disability, but the chronic pain is unbearable. I have no quality of life as I don't enjoy anything - it's all tainted by pain and medication side effects.

 

[sullengirl]

Although I have a pretty ... holistic approach to ctb, chronic pain and poor health is one of the reasons why I'm able to follow through. Shit kidneys, ovaries, liver, and GI tract. Some of it is relatively manageable, except for my ovaries. That is something that has only gotten worse, unfortunately. My body is revolting against me basically. I'm sorry to all those that suffer with these physical and chronic ailments, it is absolutely is horrible.

 

[k75]

It's not my only reason, but it's a big factor. I had cancer (with a high risk of recurrence) and botched surgeries as a result of that. Now I'm left with scars and extensive nerve damage, phantom pain and hellish itching under the numbness I can never scratch.

I also have peripheral neuropathy, pancreatitis, and diabetes. And a chronic stomach issue, where I have constant nausea and vomiting and sometimes gastroparesis.

I'm a physical mess.

 

[Jengator]

I have similar issues. I'm trying go hang on. I also don't have the courage to do it and I can't seem to successfully get N
I'm trying peptides for the gut. It's helping a little. It's called BPC 157. Not helping enough though. It helps other people a lot though.

 

[Chronicillness]

I only want to kill myself because of chronic illness. I do suffer from terror and treatment resistant depression, but this is a direct result of a mystery illness complicated further by damaging iatrogenic intervention.

 

[amnotreal]

I have a lot of mental health stuff that plays a big part in my suicidality but chronic pain always seems to be the trigger for activly looking for supplies and planning.

 

[Kingkelly]

yep cant take much more of it. hugs

 

[lymbo]

Broke out into chronic severe neuropathic pain over 1.5 years ago following trauma. It's a plexopathy, so it spreads from various nerve roots in my back down both legs (left > right). I also have fasciculations and my left foot is generally warmer than my right. But it's the constant pain that makes 99% of the suffering. All medical tests point to no further intervention advisable and the pharmaceuticals aren't helping to manage it. Pain management in general is a racket. It doesn't appear likely to improve and resolve. I plan to go with SN in Feb. I have all the materials already, so I might end up going early.
Please no medical advise, I'm tired of hearing it, Ive heard it all.

Much like yourself, OP, I had a fantastic life prior to this. I was about to finish a PhD and move to a different country to be with a person I loved and cared for a lot. In all honesty, I could adapt to disability, but the chronic pain is unbearable. I have no quality of life as I don't enjoy anything - it's all tainted by pain and medication side effects.

same as l lf l wrote that post, same payn yn the back and legs, ruyn my lyfe and major depressyon as result, used to be very actyv, meds dont work at all, lm not gona stay around to suffer , my payn ys from 2 years and seems to get worse

 

[schopenh]

same as l lf l wrote that post, same payn yn the back and legs, ruyn my lyfe and major depressyon as result, used to be very actyv, meds dont work at all, lm not gona stay around to suffer , my payn ys from 2 years and seems to get worse

Sorry to hear lymbo. It is truly not a situation human beings are capable of dealing with, so I'm sorry you have to. I hope you find peace eventually

 

[lymbo]

Sorry to hear lymbo. It is truly not a situation human beings are capable of dealing with, so I'm sorry you have to. I hope you find peace eventually

y feel pretty cornered here, there are no sygnes or cures, ym not gona stay around and suffer, 2 years ys way more than one deserves

 

[schopenh]

y feel pretty cornered here, there are no sygnes or cures, ym not gona stay around and suffer, 2 years ys way more than one deserves

I couldn't agree more. Although I am obliged to offer you my insight on your medical case because you may be getting shafted by a surgeon or incompetent neurologist / family doctor. I have helped many people who thought they were beyond help medically (sadly and ironically, I couldn't help myself).
I am wondering why you use a 'y' in place of 'i' in most words? (not suggesting there is an issue or you should stop doing it, just curious)

 

[lymbo]

my keyboard ys screwed. what advyce can u gyve me? payn meds?

I couldn't agree more. Although I am obliged to offer you my insight on your medical case because you may be getting shafted by a surgeon or incompetent neurologist / family doctor. I have helped many people who thought they were beyond help medically (sadly and ironically, I couldn't help myself).
I am wondering why you use a 'y' in place of 'i' in most words? (not suggesting there is an issue or you should stop doing it, just curious)

my keyboard ys screwed. what advyce can u gyve me? payn meds?

 

[lymbo]

I couldn't agree more. Although I am obliged to offer you my insight on your medical case because you may be getting shafted by a surgeon or incompetent neurologist / family doctor. I have helped many people who thought they were beyond help medically (sadly and ironically, I couldn't help myself).
I am wondering why you use a 'y' in place of 'i' in most words? (not suggesting there is an issue or you should stop doing it, just curious)

PM me

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Yes I have chronic pain due to an injury I had years ago. Life is not the same and I'm in my 20s. This fucked up my life. I'm not the same anymore. Sometimes I want to keep fighting and sometimes I want to die. I dont know hoe much I can resist I dont enjoy my life. I'll use SN if I give up.

 

[Soul]

I have a debilitating terminal illness. It'll be my immediate excuse for killing myself but not the main reason.

 

[JustVisiting]

Yes. Brain tumor wrapped around brain stem. Deemed terminal as it cannot be surgically removed. And I've been everywhere! I'm in severe pain from the pressure 24/7. This will kill me. WHEN is the question. If not for my teenager whom I raise alone, I'd have checked out by now due to pain. I've also been suicidal since as long as I can remember. I just always promised myself I would not do it, because it would f them up forever

Pain and medical trauma change a person in a way that only other chronic pain sufferers understand.

 

[BadDoctors]

If you guys could only see the shit I went through... I've had 3 major life changing diseases in 4 years. The 3rd and final one came about in August. I honestly can't believe my life. I was going to do great things in this world, now everything is shattered, ruined. I honestly just give up. I can't win in life. I am such a fucking loser.

 

[lymbo]

If you guys could only see the shit I went through... I've had 3 major life changing diseases in 4 years. The 3rd and final one came about in August. I honestly can't believe my life. I was going to do great things in this world, now everything is shattered, ruined. I honestly just give up. I can't win in life. I am such a fucking loser.

what happened

 

[Not_Quite_Dead_Yet]

I've been secluded in my house for 14 years unable to have company. The only two plsces I go are to the hospital or docs office.

Your life sounds a lot like mine. It is so sucky to have your whole "social" life be conversations with doctors, with scant likelihood of improvement. Hurts like hell to get to the doctors and back home, too. Do you ever say to yourself "Why even bother?" I do but I guess we are programmed to believe the medical industry will help and pain meds will make a difference. They don't, at least for me, but I know my body has developed a dependency on them and I am so afraid of withdrawal misery. And to top things off, I have built up such a tolerance to them that they can't be used as an exit strategy.

If you guys could only see the shit I went through... I've had 3 major life changing diseases in 4 years. The 3rd and final one came about in August. I honestly can't believe my life. I was going to do great things in this world, now everything is shattered, ruined. I honestly just give up. I can't win in life. I am such a fucking loser.

Nah, you are not a loser. The 3 major diseases were not a life choice you made. Is there any possibility of physical recovery at some future time?

 

[Hyperbunny]

Broke out into chronic severe neuropathic pain over 1.5 years ago following trauma. It's a plexopathy, so it spreads from various nerve roots in my back down both legs (left > right). I also have fasciculations and my left foot is generally warmer than my right. But it's the constant pain that makes 99% of the suffering. All medical tests point to no further intervention advisable and the pharmaceuticals aren't helping to manage it. Pain management in general is a racket. It doesn't appear likely to improve and resolve. I plan to go with SN in Feb. I have all the materials already, so I might end up going early.
Please no medical advise, I'm tired of hearing it, Ive heard it all.

Much like yourself, OP, I had a fantastic life prior to this. I was about to finish a PhD and move to a different country to be with a person I loved and cared for a lot. In all honesty, I could adapt to disability, but the chronic pain is unbearable. I have no quality of life as I don't enjoy anything - it's all tainted by pain and medication side effects.

Hi
I also have severe chronic nerve pain
Do any meds work for you?
Are u able to work at all.
Hope you feel better soon xo