I was wondering if i'm the only one here who wants to ctb because of facial disfugerment and if so what kind of facial disfugerment do you have?
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Csmith8827
Don't you listen to your heart? (Listen to it...)
- Oct 26, 2019
- 884
Dude my shit is fucked and i still press on. I wish that was a reason for me to end my existence but it's not. Here are some pics. If you want to leave then do it. I'm just tired of corruption and terrorism/evil. It's all about angles. Some photos look good..., some are terrible. Judge for yourself.
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brainpain2
Student
- Sep 16, 2019
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I see nothing but a normal, decent looking guy but for your safety I would suggest removing any photos of yourself in the post.
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
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Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Welcome to the forum. I agree that for your own safety, you should remove your photos. If you want to talk about anything, we are here for you.
ManWithNoName
Enlightened
- Feb 2, 2019
- 1,224
Me too (I'm hetero btw) and look at this dude's mark, and it didn't stop him any:
BTW I have seen the similar thing you have on another guy in real life at a wine bar, and saw him enjoying himself with others and vice versa—all normal.
You look totally fine buddy
i have a deformity called plagiocephaly wich makes the skull grow crooked it causes my face to grew sideways on my head making it almost look like im tilting my head i will delete the picture later on you shouldnt feel bad really you look handsome
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
I think you look fine. As a female, I wouldn't care if you had a foot growing out of your forehead if you respected, loved and treated me with respect. Looks are inconsequential to any person of substance. The sexiest thing to me is a person's intellect and conversation.
While i can agree in a certain degree i must say that society stigmatise people with deformities like mine. I have been assaulted just for comming out of my house and im judged everywhere i go. My own family ditched me because of my deformity there is no bright side sadly. I really wanted to have a life but its impossible living it like this
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
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People stigmatized me for being Jewish. I was held down, beaten and had my head shaved to see if I had horns.
I lost jobs prior to my Bariatric Surgery because of my weight. Never mind the names.
I am in a male industry, primarily run by those who are LGBT. I was blacklisted, had my life threatened, and I had things written about me in the press running the gamete from running a Satanic church to using my company to lure young girls because I am into lesbian pedophillia.
Family? I have been disowned since the 80's.
Unless you fit into what is considered societal norms, you won't fit in.
It isn't easy. Be strong. Easier said than done, but stay on your path and what is your truth. It is inconsequential what others think of you.
You are special, you are unique, and I am glad you are here, and you have a whole lot of people who love you, support you, and understand how you feel.
k75
L'appel du Vide
- Jun 27, 2019
- 2,546
For what it's worth, I see no deformaties in this thread at all.
One of my core reasons is because I feel mutilated because of botched surgeries. The scars aren't facial, but they are devastating to me. My body will never look normal again. Large areas are completely numb. I have phantom pain and itching that drives me mad for days sometimes. I lost the pleasure of touch. And none of it was my fault. So I can kind of relate to the feelings here. I'm sorry for anyone who feels this way.
One of my core reasons is because I feel mutilated because of botched surgeries. The scars aren't facial, but they are devastating to me. My body will never look normal again. Large areas are completely numb. I have phantom pain and itching that drives me mad for days sometimes. I lost the pleasure of touch. And none of it was my fault. So I can kind of relate to the feelings here. I'm sorry for anyone who feels this way.
Yes, partially at least. Mine is a result of plastic surgery which made my forehead assimetrical and uneven and there are bumps on my scalp where the surgeon made the insicision and did a really poor job at sewing it together.
It's maybe not that noticable to other people but it makes me feel deformed.
Horrible feeling.
It's maybe not that noticable to other people but it makes me feel deformed.
Horrible feeling.
You should look up plagiocephaly i litterly have one of the worst cranial deformitys that exist it also causes me going blind an deaf im a pretty severe case. And i can tottally feel you! I was opperated for a collapsed lung and ever since it feels like my body is burned on the right side really painfull i wonder if it ever goes away
Ow thats to bad can i ask wich surgeon you go to?
Do you want a name? It was a Russian cranio-facial and ortho surgeon. I have so much regret about going with him, I have no idea why I did choose him over more experienced world known surgeons. It was like fate. I didn't even liked his communication style, he was so arrogant.
Does it hurt? If not. I wouldn't ctb. If having that condition doesn't affect your everyday life tasks I wouldn't ctb. But that's your choice. I have a deformed torax and it hurts sometimes.
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finding a good surgeon is really hard these days
It hurts mentally yes and im slowly losing my hearing and vision. A deformity affects every single thing in your everyday lifes tasks you cant just go out to a shop like normal people because of stigmatization it can also scare kids a lot
Bleak Stoic
Goodbye, Cruel World.
- Dec 22, 2019
- 40
I have horrendous acne and acne scarring. It has made me suicidal sometimes.
You may be thinking, "oh! Just a little acne! You shouldn't be worrying over that!"
Well, you haven't seen my face. It literally looks like my face was stabbed 20 dozen times with an ice pick. Huge dimpled scars. Aweful, oily complexion. And some volcano sized cyst both on my face and scalp. I have literal dime sized bald spots on my head from acne scars.
I know what you're thinking now. "Try Accutane!" I did. And although there was some remission, my acne came back with a vengeance. Even worse than before. My acne is so bad that my dermatologist has made me an anonymous case study for medical research of retinoid resistant acne. Yes. That's how fucking bad my face is.
Its hideous, I know its hideous, I've come to terms with how repulsive I am. I need no empty platitudes from anyone.
You may be thinking, "oh! Just a little acne! You shouldn't be worrying over that!"
Well, you haven't seen my face. It literally looks like my face was stabbed 20 dozen times with an ice pick. Huge dimpled scars. Aweful, oily complexion. And some volcano sized cyst both on my face and scalp. I have literal dime sized bald spots on my head from acne scars.
I know what you're thinking now. "Try Accutane!" I did. And although there was some remission, my acne came back with a vengeance. Even worse than before. My acne is so bad that my dermatologist has made me an anonymous case study for medical research of retinoid resistant acne. Yes. That's how fucking bad my face is.
Its hideous, I know its hideous, I've come to terms with how repulsive I am. I need no empty platitudes from anyone.
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Jumper
Student
- Jun 18, 2019
- 149
People really don't understand how terrible it is to have something wrong with your face. I think about this often, and really empathize with you all. There's a book called, "Autobiography of a Face".... true story about a young girl who develops bone cancer in her jaw, and then has to live her life with facial disfigurement. The cancer/chemo/etc was a non issue compared to the permanent disfigurement.
It truly is. I have been trough alot of things in my life like being abused and being homeless etc but really nothing hurts as much as having no hope to ever being normal looking its very sad. When i was young i couldnt sleep because i was scared of death thinking about it its kinda funny because now i dont want to wake up in the morning because im scared of life
Csmith8827
Don't you listen to your heart? (Listen to it...)
- Oct 26, 2019
- 884
Haha me 2. I stole it from Spencers as like a "belated Xmas present" for myself. Lol. Literally walked in, grabbed it, and walked out. It was crowded in the mall that day, thank god. Then i cut the ink thing off the back. Str8 gang$ta...
Yes . Two super stupid surgeons destroyed my face . My first surgery was with a Thai surgeon andhe made a mess (it was suprising for other surgeons when they saw the ct scan) . Bones were in a very bad condition so other surgeons did not accept revision . The only surgeon who accepted to fix the previous surgeruy was a Mexican surgeon . he lied to me that he could fix my face and he made it worse . I can not look at myself in the mirroe anymore .
Don't go to Thai surgeons especially for facial bone work.
Please. They are not good.
Im probably not going i actually already found it weard they where the only ones who agreed on trying to fix me. But i already ordered my sn it makes me feel more comfortable knowing i have it in reach if my mind cant handle it anymore
That its unfixable they would have to change the whole axis of the face but it has never been done before the picture i attached is kind of what happened to my skull i have to kind of turn my head to look in front of me of that makes any sense
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Yes I understand what it is, but it's not as severe as on the picture? Do you think others notice?
Thai surgeon probably just a money grab unfortunately. But it's worth asking how exactly he is planning to do it just for the peace of mind.
My face is more rotated then the picture people noticed this i was being bullied and it al became worse when i grew older and lost my hair cant really go anywhere anymore
magick'sgone
And so on it goes....
- May 16, 2019
- 125
I don't want anyone to feel like i'm downplaying your conditions or undermining your feelings about your appearances, but here's my zero bullshit observations based on the images provided;
Csmith, your shit is not fucked up at all. You have a friendly looking face with good hair and you appear to be in decent physical shape. Your bone structure and complexion are above average. I don't know how things are with regards to other aspects of your life, but I can tell you, your looks are not bad at all.
Plagio, I understand your concern and have some knowledge of your condition. Your forehead appears even. Are you concerned that your Zygoma (cheekbones) are uneven? I suffer from that but I can't really tell if you do from the picture. You may not be perfectly symmetrical but you're features are in proportion and you look healthy (from the picture). There is nothing remarkable or shocking about your appearance, which is a good position to be in. Great facial hair BTW.
The dude with the birthmark doesn't have to worry about that much. I used to work with a guy who had about 50% of his face covered with something similar. It was called a Port-wine stain or something, and it literally covered half of his face. He grew his confidence through sports, had a fantastic personality, and his physique was impressive. His wife was an attractive woman both physically and mentally. I believe they are currently expecting their second child.
But please don't think I'm here to tell you that appearance means nothing and all the other bullshit platitudes you've probably heard a thousand times before. I'm as sick as you are of being told it's what's inside that counts by people who then spend ages doing makeup, or huge amounts on haircuts and clothes, or take a thousand fucking selfies a day. People are hypocrites. Everyone judges everyone on almost everything, and physical appearance is one of the most commonly judged criteria. It's not even only human nature....all animals do it.
I really do believe that it is possible to reach a degree of disfigurement that makes living a normal life impossible. From what I've seen of the pictures in this thread (and I can only speak about what I've actually seen), you guys aren't close to that degree. Of course it's all subjective to the individual. For example the guy I knew with the port-wine stain on his face. He could confidently perform presentations to the rest of the workforce without any fucks given (eventually). Another guy I work with at my present job calls in sick if he gets as much as one spot on his chin. It's relative to their developed coping mechanisms.
From my experience I've found a lot of cosmetic surgeons to be egotistical, money orientated, lying, narcissists. Some even psychopathic (maybe that's a necessity for cutting strangers open daily). Either that or completely unaware of their own utter incompetence. These pricks are dishonest with their before/after pictures and are entirely different people once surgery has been completed. Many provide zero aftercare and will even charge to revise their own mistakes. If something does go wrong, you are highly unlikely to win in any form of legal conflict. It's a shady business full of smiling snakes. However, sometimes it may be worth the risk. It depends on the condition, the proposed solution, the surgeon, and some old fashioned luck.
I'm not saying don't investigate surgeries or whatever, just that if I could transform into either of you guys right now, i'd be a happy man. Hope you have a good day and be kind to yourselves :)
Csmith, your shit is not fucked up at all. You have a friendly looking face with good hair and you appear to be in decent physical shape. Your bone structure and complexion are above average. I don't know how things are with regards to other aspects of your life, but I can tell you, your looks are not bad at all.
Plagio, I understand your concern and have some knowledge of your condition. Your forehead appears even. Are you concerned that your Zygoma (cheekbones) are uneven? I suffer from that but I can't really tell if you do from the picture. You may not be perfectly symmetrical but you're features are in proportion and you look healthy (from the picture). There is nothing remarkable or shocking about your appearance, which is a good position to be in. Great facial hair BTW.
The dude with the birthmark doesn't have to worry about that much. I used to work with a guy who had about 50% of his face covered with something similar. It was called a Port-wine stain or something, and it literally covered half of his face. He grew his confidence through sports, had a fantastic personality, and his physique was impressive. His wife was an attractive woman both physically and mentally. I believe they are currently expecting their second child.
But please don't think I'm here to tell you that appearance means nothing and all the other bullshit platitudes you've probably heard a thousand times before. I'm as sick as you are of being told it's what's inside that counts by people who then spend ages doing makeup, or huge amounts on haircuts and clothes, or take a thousand fucking selfies a day. People are hypocrites. Everyone judges everyone on almost everything, and physical appearance is one of the most commonly judged criteria. It's not even only human nature....all animals do it.
I really do believe that it is possible to reach a degree of disfigurement that makes living a normal life impossible. From what I've seen of the pictures in this thread (and I can only speak about what I've actually seen), you guys aren't close to that degree. Of course it's all subjective to the individual. For example the guy I knew with the port-wine stain on his face. He could confidently perform presentations to the rest of the workforce without any fucks given (eventually). Another guy I work with at my present job calls in sick if he gets as much as one spot on his chin. It's relative to their developed coping mechanisms.
From my experience I've found a lot of cosmetic surgeons to be egotistical, money orientated, lying, narcissists. Some even psychopathic (maybe that's a necessity for cutting strangers open daily). Either that or completely unaware of their own utter incompetence. These pricks are dishonest with their before/after pictures and are entirely different people once surgery has been completed. Many provide zero aftercare and will even charge to revise their own mistakes. If something does go wrong, you are highly unlikely to win in any form of legal conflict. It's a shady business full of smiling snakes. However, sometimes it may be worth the risk. It depends on the condition, the proposed solution, the surgeon, and some old fashioned luck.
I'm not saying don't investigate surgeries or whatever, just that if I could transform into either of you guys right now, i'd be a happy man. Hope you have a good day and be kind to yourselves :)
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