I've given up trying new meds, they're awful and I've been on them since childhood, only people don't stop suggesting them. I have bizarre side effects from most things on paediatric doses; I thought it must be psychosomatic until I realised I couldn't trick myself into half of them.
I have to take a cup of pills in the morning and night and often fail to swallow because of my dysphagia. Which is gross. I like how a certain set has made so much money off poison by convincing people material reality is just spontaneously defective brain chemicals.
I've been on clonazepam for seizures and mental stuff for six years and can't get off it, I just failed to withdraw again and they put me back on a smaller dose. When I withdraw the cognitive effects are so bad I feel like a tiny animal. Thinking well was all I had. Hypertension too not to mention suicidal hysterics. It's done long term damage for sure on the dose I'm on, it also may have messed with my heart? I certainly do have defective brain circuitry now lol. I begged for help withdrawing for years, all doctors I saw agreed I should but wouldn't help because they either didn't have neurological expertise or psychiatric.
Don't ever take benzos or neuroleptics if you can help it.
I think the worst thing about SSRIs—they remarkably improved my demeanour and I was less motivated to express distress so I was outwardly a bit more functional but even with therapy etc. not better, also they seemed to trigger mania, everyone is trying to make me take them again and I don't know if I should just submit, although I binge spent money etc. other impulsive behaviours while I was on them and I'm fine off them
I can't take proper painkillers without antiemetics either lol