sexual-sinning
世界上幸福的人到處有,為何不能算我一個?
- Jun 8, 2024
- 16
i joined the military in order to feel like i had a purpose and for the camaraderie and whatnot, but i actually ended up being extremely lonely. most days i felt like i was suffocating from the loneliness, it was so bad that it triggered my first suicide attempt. i ended up getting kicked out last year and now i'm just kinda floating through life with no idea what i want to do with it, and also in a shitton of debt because i listened to my parents horrible financial advice. just been working shitty dead end jobs and i'm afraid of going to college and racking up more debt because i don't even have an idea of what i want to do.
most of the reason i wanted to kill myself back then is still present. i'm horrible at socializing, i don't envision having a fulfilling social life or making any new friends, and i still don't care enough about anything to put any kind of actual effort in. i just have some new reasons now. mainly that i'm experiencing crippling poverty and i don't have any purpose or direction anymore. yay.
i tried to ctb a few months ago in a pathetic attempt of a car crash. ended up destroying my spine, and now i'm in pain everyday because of it. i probably would've tried again already if i wasn't afraid of my friend trying to end it as well.
most of the reason i wanted to kill myself back then is still present. i'm horrible at socializing, i don't envision having a fulfilling social life or making any new friends, and i still don't care enough about anything to put any kind of actual effort in. i just have some new reasons now. mainly that i'm experiencing crippling poverty and i don't have any purpose or direction anymore. yay.
i tried to ctb a few months ago in a pathetic attempt of a car crash. ended up destroying my spine, and now i'm in pain everyday because of it. i probably would've tried again already if i wasn't afraid of my friend trying to end it as well.