Help any way to make full suspension easier?

[slurpkoi]

Is there any way to stop the SI? I tried to do it but kicking of the stool from under me was too hard. If this is just a matter of me not wanting it enough I guess but i just couldn't imagine hanging there for who know how long with my wind pipe being constricted and broken

 

[JesiBel]

Maybe then it's not the right time. It's not easy, sadly.. Surely, SI will always be there and will be more 'manageable' when we're fully determined.. without doubts or fears. Personally, I'm a pretty impulsive person and I get carried away by violent emotions. I'm sure that's what will drive me to do it.