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Those are serious diagnoses you've listed (I don't know what "FND" is). I assume a professional has given you these. What does s/he have to say to your questions about what is causing your rapid swings? CPTSD seems like an obvious underlying factor, but I don't like to assume.
FND is functional neurological disorder. its not a mental health diagnosis but its neurological so it impacts moods a bit. causes some behaviours like inappropriate laughing or crying, memory loss, etc.
yeah 100%, hearing other people having the same experience is helpful for me too
easier said than done
thank you, i will definitely post if i find something that works
thats ok, no pressure to read about it cause its a big read ^.^' i hope you will be able to get to a place where you can talk about ur feelings. it helps more than bottling it up and avoiding it. but i truly do understand first-hand how challenging it can be to speak about it. i have been through a lot of different traumas and some of them my brain still refuses to talk about
thanks for your input ^__^ im glad you found a med which can help you out
thank you so much ^_^ those are definitely some useful practical things that can help my emotions. i appreciate you sharing this!!
hi, no I have not tried these ! what are your diagnoses? I can ask about it in my next medication review, but ive been terrified to start on mood stabilisers bc if they have the opposite effect and cause suicidality then I am already clinging on by a thread and a more serious attempt on my life will definitely be made. despite all of this I am seriously fighting to survive (for the sake of others around me) so I dont want that to happen. i would need to be watched like a hawk on mood stabilisers - esp as I have a history of sensitivity to medication - but there are not resources to do that in england so I feel stuck
i can really really recommend lithium, as i said i take it in combination with lamotrigine, but also without it.. it sounds as if you have a doctor you're in contact with - maybe you can ask them for their opinion on lithium for you?
o fuck do u have to do regular blood tests? this may be out of the question for me then. im terrified of needles to the point its impossible for me to have them.. i have seizures from the stress every single time
i only did them at the very beginning. they need to see how your body reacts to lithium in the sense of how much you need because it can really differ individually. my doctor told me to keep doing a blood test every 3 months just to check but i also don't really like needles (maybe not as bad as you) so once i had the feeling it's stable i started doing a blood test every 2 years or so.. (no medical advice here
whoever reads this and is not afraid of needles should do a test more often) the thing is that after a while you get a feeling of when you blood level is too high. your hands start shaking a bit etc. so when i feel that i just reduce a bit (for example i have an eating disorder so sometimes when i lose weight my lithium level gets too high and i feel some symptoms and i reduce)
