Safi
Eine Stück Scheiße ❤
- Jul 26, 2018
- 34
My brother is successful, has a job, friends, he even lives with them and everyone likes him. It's not like I don't have anything, I have a boyfriend and he makes me happier. But I don't have a job and I've never had any real friends. I'm so jealous of him. I love my brother with all my heart but whenever I look at him I always feel sad. This is unrelated to this topic but I also feel suicidal when I think of my imperfections. And of my incompetence. I quit school in 7th grade and pretty much forgot everything I learned. It's not like I was a good learner, that's what made me quit school in the first place, but I really wish I would have given my all back then and wouldn't have been so concerned with being singled out in class. I wish I wouldn't have been so depressed back then either, I could have concentrated on more important stuff. I wish I was someone else. My problems may not seem that big to others, but they make me want to die.